FairyTales That I Want

2011-11-28T02:53:00.002Z

Why some human being just can't be more insensitive in terms of politics?
Wait, firstly, you're the one who want to sneak in after official office hour! And by right, yea, i am not lying by telling them you're late.
Which indeed you are!
Secondly, I did not do it on purpose to say that you are late.
You do not need to go around telling tales to people.
And of course, as regard to one of the post saying " it's a unspoken and unwritten rule, that we got to cover our team mates backside"
Of Course, I agree. But certain things is not easy to cover or hide either.
I do not want to lie and because of you i got implicated in the matter.
I Don't owe you any living, so please dont let me see your attitude face or whatever as if i owe you $.
You may be comfortable with me but well, don't take me as a advantage!
You said that you trusted the wrong person, be it the person you referring is me anot, but what i want to say is, i Think i'm the one who trusted the wrong person.
And wait, Certain things we can talk it out face to face and not behind each other back stabbing.
I had enough of this, all i want is just rest! I just want to come to work happily and go back home happily and not thinking about office politics everyday.
Oh Well, Am in a dilemna I Do not know if i should approach you and straight things out or whatever shit.
Or Should i Just ignore and carry on with life?
I Wonder am i choosing the right path???

2011-10-04T11:29:00.002Z

Thing has not been easy for me.
Come to think of it, who will want such a meaningless life? work, knock off, eat & home, sleep and continue the rountine over and over again.
But there's one thing and only i can confirm, that is i can overcome any hardship if there's bound to happen on me.
By not going out to shop or anyhow run during the week days, i got to save alot of $$.
I been trying so hard, with all my might to save and save.
Although, i broke my own rules, by buying some stuff for baby which is gonna be a burden to me for 3 years, but well, i think it worth it to see him smiling away like a little baby.
Every month end, pay come in, everyone is so happy that they can buy anything they like or basically have more $$ to spend.
whereas for me, payday means different things completely.
Payday= run arrears by going different bank withdrawing and depositing or easier way internet transfer.
other than this is also= pay bills.
at the end of the day, my bank will always left less than 600 (inclusive of bill payment) to survive through the month that is ongoing.
bills will take up around 140 of the 600. which means i left like 400++?
Some people don't know why and why i can freaking save until like this, but well, i have to.
In order to earn myself a home, a place which i called my own.
I think sometimes, what if i cut or quit smoking to save up the cig money, but i realise i got no life at all.
Sometimes when am overstress i think cig is still the best way to distract me and let me calm down sometime when i get over agitated over certain things.
Things has really not being easy for me, neither for baby, but i really hope he will understand that i will give hime everything he wished for, but please let me have some time.. i will really die and drop dead if he is not listening to my advice or trying to be as sturbborn as the sister.
Thanksfully, he's not, at least he willing to listen to me. And of course, i did not failed him, i got you what you being wishing for, didn't i?
let me have times, i will do arrangement at my end, to squeeze out excess to let you have whatever you want.
Although i have been and always been saying i want to be a little girl, but in fact i can't!
There's too many stuff and people i need to take care of!
All i can blame is on myself for not being capable to do some more stuff, i need to find way to expand my means, but i think all these need time.
anyway, i'm damn sure that if i going to behave like this for the rest of the year until we got our flat, renovation and stuff is not a problem at all.
we can then create our dream home:)
I don't intend to change company for time being, i think am gonna stayed there and observe, if possible and if i can, i will stay on for at least 5 years? until i earn everything :)
but pray hard that there's not much changes compare to now, i mean management.
if not i will still leave.
which is the last resort and is not what i wanted.
anyway, things is gonna be better and better days after days, so i should not go and be bothered by it.
Baby, i hope this present that i got you recently, you love it! This is all i can get you for now:)
i love you my silly baby boy.

2011-10-04T04:06:00.002Z

This week finally arrived, i cannot say that this is not a good week or stuff.
Well, this week all of the team members are heading to phuket...friday all of us will be in phuket already.
But i will missed home... :(
well, a good things to share, finally brought a car! Baby got a Little red :)
hyndai getz!!! 1.6A somemore! sweee....
although by buying little red our finance will be damn tight but i think is worth it if to let him dreams come true..
well, is gonna be damn hard on me, with all savings used up, i need to replenish back my saving and save for another 50-60K for our housing issue and stuff which is gonna be like 2-3 yrs later?
Hopefully, by then i'm able to squeeze out this sum of $$$. But i believe i can :)
Baby side, need to save like around 15-20K for wedding and stuff, hopefully he can do it.
as my means is there already there's nothing much more i can help already.
Hopefully, baby will get stronger and stronger each day and each year so that i and furture baby can rely on this daddy fully.
if not mummy will die if until got baby i also have to be like this... but well, if there a need to i still will :)
Now, we got our house, our car and each other what we short of now and awaiting is

flat to complete in 2-3 yrs time

have our babies :)

hit my target of saving for babies

hit my target of saving for myself and baby :)

upgrade to a bigger car when our car is about to die :)

this is what i can think of presently, others i don't know yet there may be still more to come then:)

gonna bring yaya go wash when am back from phuket and will take the photo of this cute little duckie when he is nice and clean!

Loving you will always be my hobby.

Baby

2011-09-28T04:05:00.003Z

Decided to take some of my time to post.

well, tomorrow is the date of the selection of flat, after we done with it within 3 months am gonna receive my 1st appointment date.

So excited! sigh, but hopefully, everything is as smoothly as what i planned and calculated so that no cash is needed.

btw, i spill the beans to baby already, told him about my planning for his car.

Argggg, hate it for not being able to shut up my mouth.

sigh, am so stress,everything $$$$, i need to earn more $$$$.

I got so many plans in my mind but i can't fufil them at all, i have to knock them out one by one, one by one.

which would take me years!

Overall, am still very happy that we got a house of our own, no matter how tedious how difficult the route may be for us, i will stand strong and walk it through.
Only when am stronger and stronger days after days, then i would be able to protect my own family, my kids.

I want them to know that with Mummy around, there's nothing to be afraid off :)

But i need to have more training and learn to be stronger, be it financial wise or mentailty or whatever, i have to be strong :)

No longer a little young girl now, even though am only 20 :) i have to grow up and be like a woman and not a little girl anymore.

Although i need people to dote me and sayang me but i have to be independent (still enjoying being dote lahs haha) for my family.

This weekend, going to batam with my family, hopefully, i can get those stuff that i wanted nahs, if not disappointed. let me enjoy this weekend to the fullest :)

Next week, going phuket with my team :) sleeping alone in the Banthai hotel, first time take airplane, alamak so nervous yet i'm abit looking forward to it.

well, if with baby around that will be marvellous, but haish, if he go am afraid he will feel out of place and eventually be neglected by me. So the best is not to bring him along heheheheh....

well, can't wait for tomorrow to arrive and of course, my Batam trip and Phuket Trip :)

Baby, you will always be loved by me :)

I'm gonna give you whatever best stuff i can give you, give me time. i will save as much as i can and let your dreams came true :) <3

2011-08-18T13:12:00.003Z

There's no words to describe my feeling now.
Finally, we got our own house :)
A good queue no we got.
29 Sept we will be heading down to HDB to choose our desired unit, the critical decision we make will be part of our whole life.
:)
Seriously, after going through sooo much stuff there's one thing i realise, Nothing means more than happiness, i will not let anything or anybody that block my way to my happiness.:)

Another new, we're having a team trip soon :) is on 7 Oct to 9 Oct to phuket :) with my team member, each of us get a room of our own, but i'm abit worried, going out alone without anyone that i can really trust. sigh, guess is time to grow up already...

I'm striving hard now to acheive our goal, hopefully coming TP i pass, so one things strike off again.

Another thing will be on the list is car, hopefully cov can drop so that at least we can get a car within our means and baby and i will not get look down by some others people again.

I have some surprise for baby if he gonna get his own car but of course, this must be kept a hush hush issue. let him know will no longer be an surprise.

I miss all my buddies, Shu zhen... Evelyn.... Xin Ying... and many more that i can think of...

I have sooo many things to say but yet i do not know how to put them into words.

Alot of things do happen, but i really sincerely hope that the relationship between me and the sister will get better and instead of having some small stupid misunderstanding.

I'm tired of all these quarrelling but well, i can't hold my anger.. Sigh... this is where i failed.
Haha, enough of my stupid nagging.

I want to complete my goal!
will re-do my to do list again :)

2011-06-13T13:58:00.001Z

Am wondering....
Always seen people gotten their house so easily but why can't me and baby?
Hopefully we ballot this upcoming sale launches and get a good number.
Am tired:(
I just want a roof over our heads for me and baby.
After getting a roof we can have our very own children.
I want baby:(
I want to lead a married life:)
I want to look forward to all those stuff. But everything have to hold:(
Got to wait for the house first:( is just so freaking sad.
Pray hard that we gonna success in this upcoming balloting for balance of sale flat! And BTO!
I want a roof near my old home:)
Stay motivated towards the goal:)

2011-05-10T12:08:00.007Z

Tata~

My New D&G No. 3!

Hi Hi!!!
Am so delighted yesterday and today (of course, not during office hours which make me mad!)

Yesterday went to Rachel's Darling workplace (Glady) which located opp our building only to smell the perfume.
I wanted to get one for myself and one for someone else...
After half an hour staying there and all those smelling my nose stuck.
I can't smell properly!
And at the end of the day, i got myself No. 3 D&G perfume! Which is like damn nice!!!!
It's a very sweet and fruity smell and it smell like just bathe that kind, OMG!
IS SO RELAXING WHEN AM SMELLING IT!
Actually i got another perfume that i like which is the Escada new perfume, the MARINE GROOVE! Is also a very sweet smell. OMG... i wanted to have both!
YES I MEAN OWN BOTH OF THEM!
But well, my pocket doesnt allow me to do so. As i still got to get something for the someone, so I choose that for that someone.
Hopefully "Someone" will love it like how i love it though. ;)
Am just so happy getting new perfume and loving it! I want to open it up and use it like RIGHT NOW! But well, i can't cos, I still have my old one not used up yet. Which is the elizaberth one, but it's kinda strong for me, smell long liaos nose will still somesort of stuck.
but is still a great smell ;)
I will try to post a picture of it if i can cos now is being wrapped up except for my own perfume.
And my blogger seems to have problem uploading my picture properly to the extend that i have to use my phone;) Am using Picasa now, hopefully it turn out great and my picture stayed.

Trips

2011-04-28T00:05:00.001Z

Is so scary, believe it anot.
During good Friday. Me, baby, grandma and auntie family wanted to go to desaru as planned.
but well, heavy jam and in the end we change the venue to malacca.
Although is a short trip but the worst fear happen.
Our tyre burst when we're on our way back home!
When we signal to park at one side and the moment the door open that "shit" smell and the burning smell is damn smelly!
That very moment we didn't think much.
After that uncle suggested that we should go beneath the bridge up front there which is brighter and safer.
So we proceed there, awhile a man come and approach us and check what went wrong?
He is good lor, he helped us change the tyre without asking for anything. But well, we still give him 20rm for coffee.
After everything is done he told baby that, the place where we stop just now, not long ago got people die there. Accident.
So god damn scary lor!!!
Then Monday, mum asked what happened.
We told her and she say luckily we escape one mishap.
She said that luckily aunt they all got pray and wear Buddha on them.
Then Mummiie commented say if go for long journey, cannot have 4 or 7 person in the car, if want to have must have something to prevent.
And she told us to put Buddha in the car so to ensure safe journey.
She said the "shit" smell we smelt is corspe smell...
They are looking for people for replacement...
Damn scary lah!!!!!!
Then after that I told aunt, and aunt said uncle saw one Malaysia car plate park at the place where we first stop"which mean the dark place" then stop for very long and he didn't see anybody lor.
Damn freaking scary lahs.
Grandma total freak out and afraid.
Believe it anot is up to ownself but well, better believe and take precaution rather than sorry right?
Anyway, am gonna end here liaos.
Will upload my photos for the trip very soon!
Please stay tune to next post!

Love my baby boy:)

2011-04-21T12:07:00.001Z

Finally weekend is here!!!
Superb long weekend somemore^^
hiak hiak^^
going to desaru tomorrow with baby boy, Jessic family and grandma!!
Yipppee!!!
Let move it move it move it~
now still at Singapore customs:(
Super jammed!
Thought jam finish at timah route there should be better but well, came here is human jam!
;(((
Awww... Wearing heels somemore!
Super woman nei!!!
Wheee!
Bear with it and get it over!
Tomorrow can enjoy!!!!
Muacks!!!
Love my baby boy!!!

2011-04-13T13:05:00.001Z

I miss baby nah!
He's still stuck at office for his meeting:(
baby's brought me a citigems necklace yesterday!
Love it alot nah! Simply just love him for everything he do!
Baby must be starving now, so late le he haven't had his dinner:(
One good news is I brought angle the choice cake for dessert to go with my dinner!
Strawberry slice!!!!
I love it like to the max lah!!!!
Long time didn't eat ler, suddenly have the urge to buy and eat it^^
wheeeeee~
another good things is Adrian has appear in channel 5!
Thanks Jessic for telling me! Tomorrow can have more stuff to gossip about already!
He is damn nice boss and damn generous and he is freaking cute like a doraemon!
I took his photo also hehe... Oops... Will upload all the photos for the necklace and cake and him for today!
And of course! Some of my camwhore photo!
With baby hearts necklace our hearts linked as one!
Baby, I love you!

grateful

2011-04-08T04:22:00.001Z

Am super happy in a sense like, Robert actually remember to buy us souvenir when he went for business trip.
Although when he become nasty he is damn nasty. But well, he is a person whereas if you treat him well he treat you well..
Unlike somebody else, on the front damn nice but in fact is stingy to people.
Am not saying or praising people just because they brought stuff for me but well, time prove a person character to me.
Anyway, thanks Robert for the gift.
This coming sat which is tomorrow am going to fly kite! So Am damn happy lah.
Am stay tuned for all the updates and picture!

images

2011-04-07T03:09:00.001Z

Yes! Am going to fly a kite over the weekend!
Damn shiok!
Nothing much to do in office recently, have some long term project but am just simply too lazy to go and do it.
So in the end I doing camwhore.
Edited my photo in an unusual way.
But overall I still think is nice.

Happiness

2011-04-05T12:18:00.003Z

Today was a bad day for me at office.

Came to think about it, am still feeling mad, but well forget it be happy.

Baby, came up with the question that do i feel happy?

He said am always so grumpy and cranky at work, come back already my grumpy face is still there.

I know, i shouldn't show you my stupid grumpy face.

But sometimes, i really cannot control myself.

I really wish to be a real god damn happy girl on earth...

But is just can't happen on me.

Alright, let me make a pact to myself, i shall try my best to smile every single moment now.

And see how things goes!

I don't give a damn about whatever shit stuff going to happen in the incoming days, but am just gonna smile it through!

Hey, let see who can do it and be happy!

I want back my happy go lucky character!!!

Hehe, baby i promise you okie! give me time to change! i will!

Trust me!

housing

2011-04-05T00:08:00.001Z

Haish? Begin to worried about if we have enough money for our house anot? No matter how I calculate it show that we are always short of money. The safest time to buy the house will be after me turning 21 but baby keep say he can't wait that long. But what to do?
Is making me damn stress now. Am trying my best not to think about it but well, I always left with no choice.
Hopefully by next year before mid 2012 I can get my own housing.
Please! Let me found my dream home without being a burden to me!
Let me afford it!
Please I beg you! Am so tired of everyday stuff. I really hope and wish that we could have a house of our own like now. So that we can always be together!
And after my house I want to have a car! And our baby! Let this baby be borned with happiness.
Let it have a good environment!
This is all I wish for.
There's nothing else I have ever ask for.
May god bless me the bestest wish.
I need the best now.

My greatest wish

random photos

2011-04-04T09:27:00.001Z

At malacca hotel

Me and baby

Nice edited by hello kitty camera

My newly haircut

When we are ready, prepared to play firework!

Baby holding firework...

am pissed off

2011-04-04T08:27:00.001Z

Someone certain people just can't be bothered.
If you're sick, jolly well just go home! What the point to give your attitude to people here and making people life miserable?
I don't understand.
Haish, please do everyone a favor. Just go home.
Home wise, everyone seems to run away from grandma appointment:(
I don't bear to be heartless but well if I continue to be participate in it everything will goes to me.
I don't like it when I fork out my heart and soul to do stuff and yet people take me for granted.
Am really clueless.
Helpless...
Anyway, gonna post a photo of my baby boy edited to bright up my days^^

2011-03-22T13:13:00.002Z

Let me talk about my work place now.
1st day at new office was a shit things, there a spinster at my workplace and is always giving people attitude and throwing temper at people.
Oh well, don't need to guess, YES! I got it from her.
Everyone was damn pissed with her, and to think that the other of my team leader actually said this" if you want people to respect you, you must learn how to respect people first" Which is true! and i agreed to it!

today, is the 2nd day at the new office, of course, everyone of us cannot get use to it and still want to go back to the old slums that we used to be in.
That will be much more comfortable!
But oh well, there's pros and cons lahs, but what i like the most now is i can easily just sat at my place and do my work without people like the spinster keep calling ask me go up and down up and down for don't know whichever lame reason that she have.

My bosses part, am still in the mode of monitoring them, see how they behave and see what new stunt they are going to come up with.

Everyone is damn angry with the spinster and the worst of us all is Widya (tele tub), she sat behind her, and she keep talking to her (in shouting =_=")
She sing and expect tele tub to listen=_=" Never mind, worst is every single little things she will keep calling tele tub for help!!!!
That is like !!!!
I cannot imagine her days there sitting next to her, everyday have to do her stuff like PA to her like that.

She even dare to come and comment on us, she told us not to say we're busy! in fact! we are really super busy! She is the one who is slacking around nothing to do.! But well, what to do? Who ask her to be secretary to a equity Director and we are just a normal associate secretary, so we just have to listen to her and keep our mouth shut! we cannot say anything that the worst part!
Best part is when she is the wrong, i voice out and fight for myself she shut me up and complain to my bosses that i love to talk back to her! WTF

Haish, oh well... work sucks to the max now. Thanks to the spinster around us!

But wait wait wait!! Share one good news, me and rachel got a brand new sets of keyboard and mouse! And guess what is wireless!
Jean got it for both of us!! that is like so sweet of her man!!!

I didnt mean to ask for it, but my intention was only getting from WW and because he's an director and how much he earn per month! doesn't hurt him to fork out and buy us each set of it mahs.... But well, Jean was sweet enough to got me and rach one!! And is out from her own pocket money somemore=(

I feel bad! I feel that i like thick skinned to the max but in fact, am not....
Anyway, Jean will not be reading my blog nor any of my colleague will have chance to see all the post.
But well, i still have to say!!

A BIG THANK YOU TO JEAN TAN!!!!
THANKS FOR YOUR KEYBOARD & MOUSE!!! I LOVE IT TO THE MAX!! IS DAMN NICE TO USE IT!!

Oh well, got to go off now... look at the time now!! have to prepare to sleep..
If not baby boy gonna kill me.... whack my backside already =(

Night Peepo!!

2011-03-22T12:32:00.001Z

Hey everyone, Let again introduce my best sister!
EZSM!!! Haha, she's the best of all man!!!
I seriously love her to the max.
everything that we shared together! All the joys, all the funs,all the sadness and everything.
I cannot and i can never forget the days that we had together and all the things that she had done for me.
She is the only one who understand me to the max inside out.
She is the only who care about me, who knows how to look at my face and know what am feeling inside!
She is a superb Sweet heart that i ever have. Will never ever forget her.
There's alot of photos that i want to post up but well, i can't my blogs dont know why i can't post everything up. Oh well, guess i have to do it slowly and need to take times to look at how to go about it already.

I LOVE YOU SWEET!!
YOU'RE THE BEST!!!

2011-03-22T12:15:00.001Z

Baby, Sorry for my late post. This post was suppose to be posted on your birthday but well, my blogger got techinal fault.
Baby, firstly wish you a very happy belated birthday once again.
secondly, thanks for all the stuff you brought me and all the care and concern i got from you.

Baby, times spent with you was never better than before.
All the times that we being together is so short, i can't get enough of your silly,care,love,concern.
Although alot of times, i will be throwing tantrum and giving you headache but you still never fail to embrace me in your arms.

Baby Boy, i love you. You're my everything. You belong to me, every single bit of you belong to me and is mine.
Am selfish pardon me for not being able to share with anybody.

I love the way we play all day, I love the way we used to bicker and nag and fight.
I love the way when am being kiddish and you give in to me.
I love you!

Never ever had enough from you.

Baby, I love you.

You're just being so sweet to me always.

CHRISTINA LOVE NICKY TAN

2011-03-16T04:50:00.002Z

Today, is my second day of leave.

But, i do not feel that am having a break anyway. They are still keep msging me asking me about work stuff.

I mean, as in if is not that important as in urgent or whatever can stop msging me and ask this ask that? Or even to the extend of calling me early in the morning?

I felt that i wasted my leave on these days, i did not enjoy myself much yet, is like am just doing nothing.!

Things is turning from bad to worse now, everyone is so cranky just because of the BIG MOVE.

But oh well, not only you need to move the stuff,everyone of us here need to.

Instead of pushing everyone to die and move your own stuff only, why not let's have some team work leis?

I mean as in a sense like, We all are human beings, we all wanted to have some rest, but when you are having your rest nobody bother you at all, or let say minimum nial.

Why when come to secretary ours like normal office hours?

I begining to hate this place, hate all the people around, there is nobody that can really make me feel like staying there anymore.

And yeah, the one that i always complain during work she did not bother me when am not around in office. And of course, the almost handicapped keep ask this and that.

Fuck lahs, I need a rest seriously, stop bothering me can anot? I mean is like haish.

Speechless....

I go back not only have to cleared all my admin work you know? i still have to clear all the packing and transfering of the boxes and stuff! I mean am not an Octopus i cannot do everything myself, i will die eventually.

Never mind lors, as i said, when my limit is reached i cannot stay there any longer, my resignation letter will come in.

That it.

I do not owe any of you a living, am just working. Strictly, working!

Last time, i use to think that i can treat them nice as in my second home cos i will be there almost the whole day.

but now i realise, they are still just colleague, not friends, not family nor anything to me.

Should just draw a clear line between myself and all of you, personal means personal no leaking of it to all of you.

Office mean work work work, nothing personal i shall talk to all of you, cos none of you will understand.

Never mind, there is no point i go and think about it or whatsoever, i will just be myself, and do my work get it done and over with.

Seriously, we are not like all of you so well being so good life out there.

We have our problems, we have our woes and worries.

So stop saying you understand us alright? Cos no one can understand me.

To you all, always say i like to talk back but when things is unfair if i cannot talk then what the point? Never mind, since you like to say until like that then forget it.

In future, i work ot means claim never say anything else. Nothing much left i will just go home and rest.

Best of all, am targeting not to go back office on sunday. So please let our computer being scheduled on saturday to mirgrate the data alright? then i shall just go back and have a good rest on Sunday.

I need something to cheer me up.

2011-03-15T01:10:00.002Z

It being quite long since i last update my blog.

It's kinda of busy, but not really busy weeks for me.

Oh well, somethings does happen yesterday which i wanted to blog about.

It's not about my personal life, but is about work life.

My two bosses, AHN and KXY.

Both of them are female bosses, and of course, they are "nice" as in sometimes only.

They always have the mentality that am a octopus or let say they know am efficient but not to the extend that to drown me with all your instruction mahs.

I will die you know.

Yesterday, KXY send me a long email (office email) saying something like, (am sorry but my mermories is fading can't remember every single details).

She said" You have being a very good and efficient secretary to me, frankly speaking i won't know what to do without you. and thanks for doing the arch file and come in early today to help me bind the subs "

Think is a praise hmmm? wait and see , read on more.

Then she said" there's two things that i would like to comment about, which is your attitude and (i forget liaos).

You know am waiting for that arch file to be done, so that i can work on it, but how come you didn't tell me in the very first hand?

Then when i approach you to talk to you, you back faced me reluctant to look at me when am talking to you.

You let me feel that you did not respect me at all, nor treating me as a human being.

And if you want to complain to rachel or widya please do not talk so loud, try to tone down.

You are a SUPER good secretary i want people to know you is because of your work and not known you because of this.

I didn't mean anything by sending this email, please don't feel hurt, or upset by this email.

Am just guiding you to be more professional.

This is all i can remember from her email.

Okay, let's talk about my explantion. or let say my feeling.

firstly, you really broke my heart by saying all this to me.

secondly, you all always said you understand me for being splited between two teams is very chaotic and difficult, but none of you given me the understanding.

For example, there's an occasion when i need the trolley to move my stuff up to storage for moving of office and that erika trolley, guess what she said? She said" this is AT's Team file first, your one is not AT's Team so please dont put it on this trolley, you can bring it up yourself?" How you feel?

Never mind. I bear with it. My mind was only thinking of protecting and getting both of your stuff done.

Jean side also, chase me for bills? for admins? and ask me to chase you for this and that, but ever since you told me these few weeks you have a very chaotic schedule did i ever chase you for it? NO! I tried to cover for you instead let you have some free space then i will talk to you about all the admin that is overlooked.

Erika side, Bills got to be checked by bosses if not she don't care, knowing that both of you busy i dont let you check i try my luck and take the risk, in the end the bill went wrong my fault. I keep quiet i acknowledge is my overlook, But what else you all said? Nothing but blame me too.

AHN want her things first she said URGENT, you also said you want your things first URGENT!

If i said i got no time to do either of yours, all i get back is you must know how to priortise your work. SHIT LAHS.

In the end, AHN will only say if there is a need for you to stay and clear your work please stay.(what i have done you all didnt see it)

Never mind. I bear with it.

Am always thinking that KXY is the most understanding bosses i have but oh well, now it does not seems this way. You said i hurt your pride by backfacing you.

How about ours? We just sat down at our place during lunch didnt even talk you shut your door straight. morning time we just came in you shut your door again. The moment we open our mouth to talk about work or ask questions you also shut. We are also human being, the moment we open our mouth you shut your door against us! How we feel? we tried to be understanding that you need to focus on your work.

But we cannot seems to convince ourself with this reason anymore.

Is making us feel so low, is like we do not have a room to talk in, lunch time also cannot talk, then how are we going to de stress ourself? LUNCH is not like LUNCH anymore.

You hurt my pride and my heart by saying all those to me you know?

You didnt protect me against other people.

Others keep using me to do their work whereas they got their own secretary.

Nobody is protecting me at all.

I does not belong to either team, No belonging for me. Anything happen nobody bother all said is "is not my team" !!!

FML.

Am getting tired, seriously tired of all this, i dont want to carry on anymore. please let me off.

I love both of you seriously, i wanted to maintain a very good bonding between us so that we can have a very fun journey whatever big things we are working on. But well, you all seems to push me out from your world.

I feel damn sad. really sad. All of your saying your belong this team that team but who am i? where i belong? nobody say about it, just because am splitted. Am damn sad.

All those problem i have met, nobody knows. Am tired.

Let me have a break.

2011-02-26T04:03:00.002Z

Oh well, everything seem to went smoothly for me recently but except for work!

Work wise, everyday met menopause ladies and always get scolded or reprimanded over little things.

Never mind, worst is you defend for yourself to talk back to them also wrong!

what the hell is going on around here?

Never answer call also get scolded for nothing.

Oh well~ blame it on their senority lors... This is all we can say.

And come to my boss, alamak she is just so.......

Instructions came in late and always give last minute work! never mind.

Other than that still, play around and neglected her work ended up all other department people chasing me down for stuff and work which is i cannot do de, only they can and they know how to do.

Is just like a submission!

OMG...

Can't believe that i can actually bear with her and work...

Alamak...

Forget it, there is nothing to keep in your heart with, everything will be fine soon.

Oh well, today no night market for me cos gong gong's birthday so we are all going over to celebrate which is abit bored for me.... nothing to do.....

Then coming week is baby's dad birthday!

the 2nd birthday that celebrating with me... whahahhaha...

oh well, i do not know what else to say liaos...

Stay tuned for next update.

2011-02-22T12:44:00.002Z

Hmmm... Brother got into accident today.
Oh well, It happen at steven road.
Nothing seriously but still, it hurts everyone heart to see him like that.
But he is not listening to everyone.
Just hope that he can stop riding bike.
Anyway, all my words felt deaf on him.
While posting, had a quarrel with Him again.
Oh well, am tired, seriously tired. I hate it whenever you complain that you are very jialat lahs. or what lahs.
You have not been to the worst, so dont make those comment in front of me!
OK!
firstly, your parents will call you up everyday to ask how are you?
when you broke, they will give you money.
Anything happen, they will come to your rescue and ask how are you?
Birthday they will bring you out for a meal and sayang you.
They will give you all the needs and wants they can.
So ain't you fortunate to have your parents? so stop complaining or grumbling that you feel neglected or whatsoever.
To me, i led a normal life.
My birthday there is no one to celebrate with me when am young.
My expenses i work to cover it.
Anything i want or need i got to buy it myself through working.
Other than this, When am broke i just got to save and scrimp and eat maggie mee.
Everyone got their parents around doting them but am not!
I do not have someone to wash my clothes, someone to sms me or call me to check how is my work? I do not have someone to check if am going back home today? I do not have someone to check if i have eaten, anything happen today?
I do not have someone who will wait for me at home if am home late, i do not have someone who will wait and pay cab fare for me if am broke and unable to go home.
All i have is me, myself. Got to wait till dawn to take first bus or train back home.
I do not have someone to cook for me and wait for me to have dinner.
I do not have that special someones in my life! Not like you all.
So please do not been in the happiness and keep shouting you do not know what is happiness.
Or let say, Being pampered and yet shouting neglected.
These all, is what the basic that everyone will have but not me.
Until now, my mum does not even know where i work, how is my work place, what is my work field.
Until now, they do not know am i happy,sad, angry or devasted.
They do not know!
All i have is just only the partner in my life, but yet you only will focus on how good is your family. and keep bringing up to me.
i know i know don't need you to say it out loud to me!
The things is i hate whenever you or your sibling shouting neglected or can say you all has taken your parents for granted.
Try mine and you will know. I been envying your siblings all along, how i wish i have this kind of parent or let say they are my parents.
But oh well, truth is truth it can never be covered. And also even though they treat me well but they still cannot replaced my parents place.
This is the fact and this is my destiny.
Blame it on my soft hearted, Blame myself for being able to think and be mature.
Blame me! Blame myself!
Nothing more i can say could ever say my inner words.
All i have is grandparental loves.
The Big and generous from grandma.
She is the only one i have in my life.
I love you, ah ma.
Please stay by me and guide me through my life.
Nobody can replaced you and you will never be replaced, Cos everyone that mean something to me has each of their unique places and is no one can replaced not by saying or doing something can replaced. cos it take times to me the bonds there and make your root grow in my heart in that special place.
I love all of you, each of you belong to different part in my heart which make me as one whole piece now.
Baby, i love you too. for you your special place will always be there till the days you or me left this world.

2011-02-21T12:37:00.002Z

Oh well, is been long since i last update.

Nothing much happen anyway.

But am feeling kinda unhappy or let say sad bahs.

Office politics is always driving me mad as usual, and best part is i don't feel that i belong to anywhere?

Been splited is not that good, but well, good things i have shares and bad stuff i also have shares.

Rachel is on MC today, covering for her. although is not alot of things but well, still...

Haish, speechless.

Then never mind, AT and WW team always seem to be like fighting with each other over me.

Am the one that is being splited and working hard like mad.

please ask me for my opinion instead of taking things at your own hand without asking me or approaching me!

Never mind, all didnt take me as part of the team.

Jean wise, only care about RACHEL SNG, everything only juggle her... How about me?

Well, i guess am being over hardworking to the extend that everyone aware of my capablities thus entrusting all heavy stuff to me bahs.

But! am still a human being! i need a rest seriously! i will die of exhausted if carry on like this!

No one really know how i feel as in aye, i do not know how to put it in words, but still i feel unfair!

i work so much, yet everyone is getting the same things.. so what is the point of me performing so well...?

OH MY GOD!

stop killing me! i will die seriously!

if you think that am not fit in your team or you do not want to talk to me then release me! let me go to AT team then.

Spare me from all the misery!

I cannot stand it!

Know that i can work and everything push to me! Am seriously very tired. Mentally tired. Nothing can help me to solve it.

Just hope that god can guide me through and let me be.

Just Spare me from all those stuff.

And Please remember Human made mistake this include you! ya you!

No one is perfect in this world.

And for godness sake stop acting as though you are the purest of us all! Stop acting naive and pure! i cannot stand it!

YOU'RE NOT ABIT OF PURE AT ALL!

BLOODY SHIT!

Haish.. forget it. Voice it out and let the matter rest bahs..

there will always be alot of things to update if am gonna talk about work here.

Haish.

Next post will be on picture taken on Valentine's day!

oh well, is not me and my baby but is my office colleague and bosses! And guess what is CTYN hatchday! enjoyz...

2011-02-14T12:45:00.002Z

Today suppose to be a very happy day for everyone.

Is VALENTINE'S DAY.

oh wells, things does not goes smoothly for me in the morning.

Everything came crumpled, i do not understand why money has to be such a big issues?

Is only less than 50 bucks if everyone is gonna chip in!

Alamak, am speechless.

Firstly, i have to declare that am really broke, damn broke.

Broke to the extend that i got to cut down my expenses for few months to recover my lost for these few months.

Yet, still some people does not understand the meaning of am broke.

Am not that kind of person like as in i got the money and means yet i do not want to fork out or chip in.

Still, it goes back to the same circle or let say topic that am saying about.

I need to buy a house, using hot cash!

and i need to have alot of hot cash money,

But haish, sometimes my means is there and i cannot do much things and i does not have much strength to do all those stuff my own.

I will die, will die of exhaust.

Am so sians, am so tired already.

Haish, but oh wells, i do not want to bother so much already.

as i always said, everything i do in the end the claim or so called outcome will always be my brother is the best.

OH WELLS~

Let's talk about today bahs,

Nothing much happened. work wise, is kinda smooth but met some urgent stuff to do and to get it out.

And now have to cleared all stuff to get ready to moved to new company.

Then, other than that there's alot of virus or let's called it sick buds around.

Alot of people are sick.... YAWNS...

Then after work, baby brought me to cafe cartel to have dinner a plaza.

IT SUCKS.

Alamak, service sucks, slow enough even just for a bill to be paid. still have to walk up to the counter to pay ourself in the end.

AND

the food, not nice at all, eat too much is so sickening of it.

I ate the tender chicken chop, baby ate the pork rib.

And the review from us is bad, we wont patronise them anymore.

Alright, is getting late, i have to get ready to bathe and then go sleep.

Search for baby's birthday gift also... ^^

2011-02-13T15:08:00.002Z

One week has passed.

The new year atmosphere is going down...

No more CNY mood for me.

Starting to get back to work life again.

Is damn bored man, but no choice, i got to die die save money and earn my money to get my own house.

Only by going through all these then you will be a better person, if everything is given to you and spoon feed by people you will never understand the real meaning of living and all the hardships behind.

Jiayou bahs..

Whatever may come by, i believe me and baby will get our house de... Hehe...

Love baby lots lots...

Wanna have alot of sweet sweet photo with baby but everytime hardly got a chance to take any picture with a beautiful background nahs...

Haish, thinking of housing the thought of it make me feel like fainting... Am really afraid that we do not have so much cash for it wors...

Or am i just being over thinking or being over much lers? or is it just let it be and let things take nature?

Hmm, think end of this year maybe can source see how much exactly we need to have in our hand then see maybe my birthday next year we can go for it ler.

Is the 2nd Valentine's day that am gonna be with baby, we will not be celebrating or having any special things cos we believe as we love each other everyday is Valentine day to us.

Don't need to have a proclaim Valentine day then celebrate or being sweet to each other.

I have so many things to think of everyday and so many things to calculate for.

ALAMAK

i think i will die early sial... haha...

Never mind, dont wanna stress myself so much. just let it be bahs...

I believe if there is a will there is a way.

So at my age of 21 to get my own house and happily annouce there a plus one coming is not a difficult things..

So hopefully things will go my way and i can give my future plus one a happy and good home to be in .

LOVE YOU NTKH.

CHEERS...

Things will be good eventually....

what goes around comes around....

Jiayouz

2011-02-08T15:13:00.002Z

Today, we have a so called "family" meeting.

Granny changed alot, from a gentle, generous and big hearted granny in my eyes changed to hot temper, forgetful granny.

Tomorrow bringing her to check up, thanks god that she agreed to go.

Things has been the same for this 2 years, yet nobody realise and no one choose to believe what ray and glady has voiced out.

Nobody seem to notice and pay attention to her at all.

No matter what may happen, whatever may come by, she will always be the most caring grandma i ever have.

I do not know what may be the result tomorrow, but am really hoping that she is nothing much but just that she has lost too much money and stressing herself.

Hopefully, that will be the only caused for it.

But still, these will lead to depression and alot of other illness.

I do not know what else i can do, am already doing my very best for you granny. all i hope is that you can see and you will be able to feel it.

I really cannot imagine the day you not around or whatever happen to you.

Please stay with me as long as you can.

I need you, the only support i had in my life other than baby.

Anyway, baby stuff already settled, dont feel like remembering it anymore.

will just continue my life and save money for our future.

Baby i love you.

Thanks for being there whenever i need you.

CHRISTINA LEE LOVE NICKY TAN

2011-02-06T16:38:00.002Z

Am still feeling so unhappy.

He don't understand what i want.

Am speechless now.

Am feeling so no comment now, i don't wish to talk to him now.

I feeling so abandon,unwanted and hatred.

Still, he cannot do to the extent as i stated.

Am afraid to say yes i do now.

Am really afraid.

Please don't blame me, but this is how my heart led me to.

you lost the ability to protect me and make me feel secured anymore.

even if you open your door up for me, it make no difference.

2011-02-06T16:09:00.002Z

Alot of things always left unsaid.

I mean, you are not me.

You do not understand how i feel.

I always felt that i missed something whenever i went in with you.

I will missed my family..

Although ya, i do not have a perfect family like you. But still, they are my family.

you do not understand and does not understand that kind of feeling.

is just like your Sister does not know your feeling.

Others will only say i Bully you "everything you do la", "always spent your monies", "dote me more than them lahs"

Honestly speaking, firstly, i did ask you to help me sometimes, but you can reject if you want. And this kind of things is we mutally agreed to help each other matter.

Secondly, I did not spent your monies. The only thing you got for me is LV bag that it.

I brought my own lappy, my own stuff, my own camera. So Please ask them to shut their mouth up if they do not know what is the things hidden behind.

finally, you dote them and me is the different things. they are your sister i know, am your future wife.

You dote them like mad, will they bear you your kids? NO!

You dote them like crazy, will they scrimp and save with you to buy yourself a house? NO!

When you left penniless do they offer to give you money? NO!

What you need can they give you? NO!

SO PLEASE LET THEM KNOW THEY AND ME IS DIFFERENT THINGS.

IS JUST LIKE HOW THEY WOULD WANT YOUR FATHER TO DOTE ON YOUR MOTHER MORE RATHER THAN THE AUNTS.

Things they know how to say and complain only when they are the affected person.

let them try to walk in my shoes before they come and complain or made any feedback to your DAD.

I know they treat me good, but as i always said i do not like people to make comments on me when things is untrue or things is logical.

I have alot of heartfelt words to say, but i can't say to you.

Cos you wont understand how i feel.

After so long, you still do not know what my inner side is thinking or feeling.

Certain things are meant not to be said out from the mouth.

I tried a lot of time to drop you hint and voices it out bit by bit, but still you can't really catch it.

Am tired and sian already.

I hate myself for caring so much.

I wish that i have no heart from now on.

Can please just let me don't give a damn on whatever things that is gonna happen in your family anymore.

I do not wish to make any comments.

AM TIRED.

It's been 2 years , 2 YEARS i wasted my energy and soul on something which i cannot see any changes, i being pinning hope that whatever you said time proved everything will really proved.

But am tired, seriously tired.

from now on, i will train myself to cooped everything in my heart itself and stop telling you how i feel anymore. i should be an emotionless person in front of you. I wont cry anymore.

I wont shed a tears anymore.

Everything will be in my heart.

Nothing i will voice it out to you.

Not now anymore.

2011-02-04T16:12:00.003Z

Things is alot different in malaysia when come to new year.

Alot of things i cannot do at all.

Still, i miss my home.

At here, i got no friends at all.... not even need to say company liaos.

first day of CNY stayed at POPO's House until evening go back bathe le jiu go AH GONG's PLACE....

is boring... I hate it there...

Have to wake up early in the morning and then nothing to do...

Second day...

Is better though... i can get to sleep till noon time...

Then go AH GONG's HOUSE again...

Which left me half dead. Alot of mosquito bite... =(

after that around 6 plus went back home to bathe and change and go to ULU CHOH...

POPO's HOUSE...

Alot of people put fire crackers!!! DAMN NICE LAHS...

ownself also played quite a few...

but eventually it still went bored... BORED TO MAX...

It will be good if my family is here....

I can have more laughter and fun to play with..

More people to share my joy with...

Come to realize somethings, when i treated someone too good everyday.. they will not realize the goodness that you have.

Once you done something wrong , people will marked you down..

But when people who only done something once in a time good...

People treat them like god...

this scenerio is not only happening in my family... But in Baby's Family too...

Am a bit sad and affected by it though...

But haish...

eventually the answer i have is

THEY ARE STILL YOUNG, IMMATURE...

2011-02-01T12:45:00.002Z

Okay.
Confession time.
This month am damn broke.
I do not know why but without me realizing am already broke.
Spent 19 bucks each on 2 tops.
Spent 19.95 on one dress which is like only the next day of my payday?
Then spent 20 bucks on movie and 100 on phonebill.
okie, roughly spent 180.00
then, went for reunion dinner which cost me $46 and $20 for Bak Kwa...
So total is $246.00....
Then then then, on sat night went out brought myself a Charger for DS and Camera Pouch which cost me like $14? then also brought a laptop bag and Camera Protector which added up like 30? then also brought 2 packet of cig that day one for baby and one for me myself.
On Sunday night i spent-->310?
OMG!!!! then top up ezlink card also. guess can see am like damn broke...
tomorrow still buying abalone for granny so cost another 100...

Total spending is $410.
My payday is still like 3 weeks away after CNY.
OMG...
Die Die Die...
Anyway, just control my money for this month...
should be able to overcome it.
brought Lappy and camera for myself...
OMG am Damn happy this year, is a good start for a NEW YEAR INDEED.
i have achieve all stuff by myself . one at a time.
and i done it! am freaking proud..
anyway..

MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTION FOR THIS YEAR IS SAVE SAVE SAVE!!!!! and HOUSE HOUSE HOUSE!!

Love you baby, for loving me

2011-01-30T04:36:00.002Z

Alot of things has happened recently.

sometimes me myself i do not even know if what am being doing is all correct?

New camera,new lappy and Nitendo DS.

Am superb happy when i got all the abovementioned items.

But of course lahs, there is prices to pay for.

Work wise, there alot of changes.

am gonna take over 2 of the superb big files and worst things is the DMS thingy is not yet done.

i felt like so dead meat.

But fortunate things is me and her have a small agreement that we maybe split the file under the table.

Office has sooo many politics and people are all covering their own backside and push you to die.

Never mind, but some people are just so JERK to the max that they just dont bother if they are right or wrong.

Alot of things can be seen and learned while am working there.

It kinda mental torturing anyway, but thanks god i survive through .

My team of course is a damn fun team and the work is damn heavyload.

My bosses are all superb nice ttm.

Love them for being so caring and understanding always.

But certain things cannot be said like nobody business lahs.

Me and baby is getting more and more use to each other life.

BB and me is counting down to our officially 2nd year anni ^^

hopefully, can get my house by this year or next year first quarter.

Am so dead, i really damn sickening of the lifeless i have now. without baby grumbling i never wash my feet to go up bed.

never drink more water, and most importantly baby will never fail to say am a polar bear.

hahahaa...

wed midnight (new year eve) baby is coming out to fetch me in ^^

This year decided to spent my new year in malaysia.

hopefully, i wont be homesick.

But i really do love baby's family.

All of them are the best...

Simply just being spolit to the max by the TAN's FAMILY.

wheheheheheheh...

gotten go off liaos...

Raining heavily now... baby still fast asleep ^^

2010-10-13T02:27:00.002Z

Me And Shah Hilda

Been took by Shah

FOOD FOOD

OMG

I LOVE POTATOES

2010-10-13T02:13:00.002Z

Is been long, since my last updated stories.

Things is keep ongoing and alot of unhappiness will eventually be pop out of no where.

Yah, i agreed i do enjoyed myself here better than ex-firm.

The problem that lies is on the work now.

Everyone seems to be treating me like SUPERWOMAN.

Like as if, i will not die nor sick nor unhappy.

Everything i just got to LL suck thumb and do it.

I hate everything here.

Is there anyway that would make my life better?

I don't think so~

When one person begin to mastered the stuff and be hardworking,

people will came and rummage you.

I don't understand~

Is there a wrong to be young and energetic?

I guess, am just over hardworking.

And yet, no appreciation is been received.

I hate it.

Things is so different before i came in.

What they used to say , it does not apply on it now.

I hate it!

I hate all of the people!

In order to Survive i will stay Strong!

Strong and Determination is my only way out now.

I can think of nothing else.

Nothing else.

Am just tired.

2010-05-15T16:31:00.002Z

Time being flying pass so fast,

i can't even catch myself breathing not even hearing one single heart beat from myself.

Life was hard, i been alway forcing myself to brave thru it and stand strong.

But i know 1 day just that pathetic 1 day i will fall, from the cliff i'm clinging on now.

It will be hard for me to stand up after i fall and suffered the brusies, i need to be strong i need energy to go on.

I need support and encourgement to carry on.

I don't care what went wrong now, i can't be bother about it anymore.

All i know is i want to continue climbing up high and headed ahead before anyone else does.

I have no confidence in myself now, i lost my motivation.

I'm afraid that i will get rejected and things will made known to others.

But no worries, i believe in myself, i believe i'm able to do it.

If i lose faith in myself i think this is the end of me and my life already.

I want to hop on the fast train and to the end of the end.

i'm tired and exhausted.

Kindly pardon me for anything that i have done wrong.

SUCCESS AND EXCEL!

is all i need now.

Stay strong and move on

be more independent!

2010-04-11T14:59:00.002Z

I'm confused...

I fall alway and i pick myself up,

I need motivation to pushed myself harded for a better time.

I'm sick and tired of all this stuff.

I can hardly breathe...

Please let me breathe.

Fortunately i have my baby...

Baby, i will wait for you.

Whatever you promise me, i know you will do it.

My heart can't stop beating for you..

Love you baby..

Counting down to our own house!

2010-04-06T17:14:00.003Z

I've been started working for so long, lifes passes by, and friends walking thru.

i've been walking at a fast speed space that i can't even detect myself at all.

Should i slow down my pace and take a good look at things and event happening around me?

I've been missing quite alot of things,nobody understand me and what i'm doing and how i feel. Needless to say anything else.

Working been like a de-stress for me in my life though, it take my mind off from my families.

Been focusing on earning monies and neglected my loved.

Thanks for being so understanding and keep staying by me, really do appreciate your love and your effort for me, although i did not speak it out.

After few months of being like alien or let say robot, i'm finally down. K.O

The feeling of being down with illness is so much unbearable, i can't do anything to the pain i'm suffering thru.

I can't help it or even relieve it by eating the medicine, i know by seeing me be in pain, it broke your heart badly..

But it can't be help, i 've been tryying to hide my pain from you.

Doesn't want to let you see that i'm suffering yet you cannot do anything.

I'm done enough, Thursday i will be back to my normal rountine, just hope things will be better for me.

I just cannot imagine me for being sick for too long, i'm afraid of it.

People alway say being sick is good, but i don't think so.Is okay to be sick for a while, but not when the whole process is being prolonged.

Going back to the work field and start my busy day again.

The world is just so damn small, all my friends around are connected.

Been pondering to myself, since the world is so small, but yet why so many conflict?

Tired, i'm tired.

I need a good and long rest.

Thanks hubby, for being by me whenever i'm down and i need you.

You have been such a dear to me, i love you baby.

2010-02-13T01:45:00.002Z

HiHi,I'm finally back to post some things before the busy period again.
Now all my life is working and working..=)
although life is hard but i never ever regret it as i know what i'm doing now is good for my own future... everything is planned and go thru tedious things before it matured.
Although is very tiring to travel thru and fro from office to home, but i think it is all worth when i see hubby.
Hubby, you have been such a good and dear to me now and then, understand what i need and how i'm feeling.
I never ever think that i will be so fortunate to have you in my life.
Although now with my clients more closer and got alot of things to talk about already,but still feel sometime that my working place is so stressful.
Anyway, my holiday is here liaos shouldnt keep saying about me work.
this year more special never brought anything for hubby as he dont want me to buy if not he want angry me...
making me save money for him ended up nothing he wanted.
i want to save and save...
hopefully ic an get my target by this year whahaha...
anyway got to prepare and go grandma house liaos lers...
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!

tata...
Love you my dearest HUBBY.

2009-12-31T12:44:00.002Z

It's been a long time since i went missing in my blogspot..
laughs,been really busy with my work now adays,
law firm job indeed is not really easy especially for being an secretary in convy and then sudden change to banking litigation.
working for OCBC right now..
maybe in future if really need to take up a loan from bank must think twice ehs...
for Hire Purchase(car loan) is 7.75% for act case and 9.75% for non-act case...
omg,don't think is easy..but loan really come in handy if you wont default your payment...
Everyday dunning and always sent ltr update client..
faint..
but overall is worth it..
within 3 months i work..
i earn myself a E72 and alot of stuffs like my Ipod nano and many clothes...
at the end i still left with monies...
although working is tired...
but whenever i got home meet hubby i feel all relax and all things i had bear with in office is all worth it...
he is such an understanding boy and such a dear to me now...
it's really feel good to have someone stand by you always and giving you all the support you ever needed...
THANKS HUBBY FOR BEING THERE!!!
2010 is coming hope will have a fresh start man!!!
all the best to all of you my friends, WATIE!!!JULIANA!!!HIDAYAH!!!EVELYN!!! and lots more which i lazy to mention it out...
opps
not being biased or what but i got to go liaos...
everything i want i will have to earn it on my own!!!
buck up!!

2009-10-25T14:34:00.001Z

sians,tmr going to work again.

LOLs,

Really no time for my friends this time.

Haha,

You may say me bad for company my BF only.

But haha,

that how i like my life to be.

LOLs,

Times fly too fast liaos,

Or maybe i'm getting old liaos lers.

Anything just text me please all my friend,

Really no time to go online liaos.

Miss all my good old friend..

Love my boy always.

Muackmuack

2009-08-30T15:12:00.001Z

haha,good things are mean to shared with friends.

lols..

now preparing my stuffs for ROM.

date havent decide yet but i intend to settle all early.

laughs...

i passed my Final theory test haha...

so shiok men...

all thoery one time pass de..

lols..

busy doing my blog stuffs..

new items are up..friends please do visit and buy from me ehs..

http://cozydiva.blogspot.com

2009-08-18T18:16:00.002Z

Met somebody today which is an total disgrace to their country and humanbeing.

Today,intended to bring my cousin out to play but his parent dont allow

so off the deal.

then me and jovin we proceed to plaza and then headed to bugis.

we boarded the bus and sit at the rear of the bus there.

behing us was a couple,they dont look like local.

and i dont even know which country they are from so i just called them black skins.

things happen is this.

a damn heavy traffic jam occured along BKE to PIE all the way to dont know where.

As i exit at whitely road.

the damn guy,nagged and cursed for almost the whole journey.

for the bus been stuck in the middle of the jam.

as i was sharing earpiece with jovin thus i can heard what he is saying.

i didnt mean to hear it but he just speak too loud.

He complain and cursed for 45mins like or longer.

he said very loudly"Betta Hope That Somebody Is dying In front"

"That Person Better Be Dead"

The gf"Yes,betta Be"

after tht they begin to kiss and do alot of things which cannot be do in public

maybe they are too open but it's abit over to do it here.

then our bus got pass TP and two car.

he hurried to the window and look and told his gf to look for dead body.

to their dismay,TP is just issue summon to them,

traffic jam is not due to them.

So he cursed and scolded alot of ****.and then he stopped.

Then he said out of sudden that He damn F***king wishes that

in front is an bloody dead body.

around after eng neo ave exit,

got two car stop at lane 2.

i think due to car breakdown as there is no accident thing from my view.

He is damn disappointed and cursed again.

He said it so loud that i'm seating in front of him and i feel shamed on him.

I pity his gf from having such a bloody cold harted bf,

But the gf seems to enjoy and support his guy doings!

OMG!!we wondering what on earth are they thinking?

It's so cruel to cursed ppl die.

how would they felt?if the person is their kins?

they got no brain to think.

And the person who caused the jam may not be purposely.

who will intendly go and do this kind of things?is kinda stupid isnt it?

Maybe i'm over sensitive to this kind of things.

due to my baobei accident i realise that certain things is cannot be said or cursed.

But i just cant stand them and the way they carried themself.

IMMORAL ASSHOLE!!

i just feel like giving them a tight slap for what they said and i want them to eat back their owm words.

just want to get all those out of my heart.

not say i'm been biased to black skin or what.

I'm not intending to do any hurtful remarks or whatever.

as i dont know their name so i only call them by their skin color.

FEEL SHIOK AFTER LETTING IT OFF MY CHEST!

Anyway,love the way i go out and hubby fetch me when i'm back.

it's always feel so safe and sweet.

Thanks hubby for always been there for me.

I seriously love you lots.

muacksmuacks.

you're always just that sweet baby...

May happiness and sweetness always follow us!!!

2009-07-26T18:21:00.003Z

Been busy for quite a long time.

didnt manage to post anything up yet.

blogshop finally got some things good.

LTA resume status change to under consideration liaos.

hopefully can get in then all my prob are finally solved.

didnt do anything much.

tmr going for BTT evaluation.

hopefully everything went smoothly.

things is gonna be alright soon.

times has past been indulge in my world for too long.

think it's time to start all my life all over again.

friends out there i'm sorry to neglected anyone of you.

it's not my intention.

But i really do need to buck up and create my own future now.

hopefully can get out of my house before i turning 21yrs old.

hubby you always dote me and love me always.

didnt change at all.

i'll always be by ur side and support u thru all ups and downs in ur life.

never gonna left you alone in ur life again.

i love you lots hubby.

muacks....

2009-06-29T15:34:00.002Z

Today been watching disc for whole day.
was bored to death man....
But no choice,no place to go..no money also
hubby today dont feel quite well..
worried for him sia,today he didnt come find me.
dont let him as he is sick.
remake my blog background haha.
simple and easy ohs.
nothing much to do.
chiong the disc from part 1 to part 2 liaos..
decide to take a break ahha..
nothing much to post.
Just miss him.
wanted to voice out only.

2009-06-22T19:58:00.002Z

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2009-06-18T16:08:00.002Z

Going in msia tmr again.

celebrating father day with his daddy.

Didnt go anywhere today except going to causeway to help grandma replace her lost sim card and get a new phone.

She got herself a $15.00 plan per month and a nokia phone 3120.

Hmmm,Singtel is not that a good choice i think.

M1 And Starhub at least got some discount like maybe 100 bucks when your line is going to be renew?

Yet Singtel dont have when grandma has been their loyal customer for 3 years.

LOLs...

Then went back to grandma house after that.

Played with my precious and baobei for a long time at playground and hubby come fetch me home after that..

HAHAs...nothing else to post i think..

life is getting more and more bored already..

LOLs...

2009-06-17T10:30:00.002Z

I do not have the need to entertain those childish brainless ppl.

Spamming my tagboard to me is nothing,

spam as you like.

So what you say i'm buang?

I don't need to know who you are and why you said that or what so ever?

i dont even need you to like me or whatever before i can survive in this society.

I don't need to see anyone face to survive.

All i need is myself.

Thanks for your Compliment ehs.Really do brighten up my day alot=)

Thanks whoever is that spamming.

If you seriously do hate me then dont come and view me to ease you anger or whatever shit to prevent you from banging on the wall that you cant do anything to me=)

For your info,i dont need you to find me pretty.

i'm confident in myself.If you're a girl i think you sure have self-low esteem.

even if you are a guy it doesn't mean that i need you approval or anything.

Anyway,thanks alot for ur compliment.

i'll Seriously look into ur compliment.

hahahs....

PS:sister or there,only stupid ppl'll spam ur blog so if you ever have just dont care.

dont stood urself to their level.

alright!nothing to voice out already.getting my butt off here..

Takecare everyone..

2009-06-11T19:08:00.002Z

As i can say..

i felt like i was wingless today.

went JP with my family.

I thought i will be good as usual but i miss someone.

I miss my hubby terribly.

I thought having him by my side straight away.

A pity he's on his duty today.

I miss him like hell..

Maybe a few day apart really will prove our love for each other.

Should have blamed myself.

For taking granted on him by my side loving me caring for me and evrything.

I've decide long ago i just want him as my groom-to-be.

Nobody else.

That's it!

i wanted to start a family of my own with him just that lovely boy.

a family with 2/3 kids.

lots of laughter will come by i'm sure.

what's if it's was a baby boy?

what should i name him?

what's if is a baby girl?

then what should i name it again?

i just can't wait to see that day come as we married.

i longed to be his ans only his.

to be his kids mother-to-be.

I'll love my groom-to-be and my kids-to-be..

hahas..i'm going crazy talking lots of craps now.

But having something belong to him inside me is my greatest gift from him i promise and i'm sure.

just can't wait to be his bride-to-be.

I love you my hubby=x

days as days passes can't erase or take away my love for you and my everything that was meant for you.

memories will be everywhere for both of us.

sweetest boy in the world.

how lucky am i to have you... my darling.

2009-06-08T06:12:00.002Z

The time i was with my sweetest heart.

My 甜心!

fun and loving as going out with her.

Nothing gonna change our relationship.

As time is kept short i got to update whatever i can...

sunday just went WWW with sweetheart,ryan and hubby..

all the fun we had will be in me my head..

nothing gonna change all the fun and love that we had..

meeting her 150609 to CK department..

Love you much much sweetest heart..

Shall see you..

NANA And EVEYLN

2009-06-08T06:03:00.002Z

There's nothing like bestest life in my life.

But i do had a wonderful time with the one i loved badly.

seeing me thru all ups and downs in my life holding my hands leading me from the route of despair to the other world.

Long time since i have my ownself back.

Lost all of my happiness and leading myself to a world of no emotions and been used and numb to everything.

You bring back my life,my heartbeat,my soul.

Making me think and feel that everything come alive because of me.

i've found another goal in my life thru you.

Nothing cannot be solved nothing can take me away from you.

All the happiness time i have i want to share it with you and let you lead the wonderful life as me.

Nobody can give ma back all the faith i have lost in love except you.

All the support you gave and all the love you given me has buried me deep inside your hugs..

although i cant see anything cant smell or cant feel outside world in urs hug but i know i'm safe and secure inside you.

All the things you had given me noone has done so.

even they do,they broke it with their own hands and threw me into the cliff of despair.

I knew you wont do it to me.

you wont be so heartless like them thats why i love you so.

Promise me,you will be there for me whenever i need you badly.

I love you hubby(nicky tan kien heng)

Nothing gonna changed the facts.

2009-06-08T05:28:00.003Z

Sweetest heart that we have for each other=)

No matter how far we're.we will always remenber each other.

Fun time that we had going WWW all other!i Shall never forget about it.

Evelyn And ChristinaSweetheart till everlast=)

2009-06-02T05:58:00.002Z

Ytd went to plaza at 2pm to meet my beloved sweetheart...

we 2 gave each other the same present without planning..

haha,we think alike ehs...BRACLET!

as for hubby,he gave me a ring..=)

Love it alot..

hahas,sunday planning to go out with her and hubby to swimming but don't know that if she can make it anot..?

Ryan will be going also nors..

Wakikiki...

After all that went back home to fetch my cousin to grandma house ordered by her mum...LOLs..and her mum said she is my present hahahaha..

LOLs,then went grandme house celebrate..

I have all the limelight and my precious and baobei so cute i cannot tahan them..

they ahs,although small but they celebrate with me really brighten up my days alot...

among all the celebration i think only my grandma house is the place that i truely enjoy...hubby also got go..he eventually become like friends with my aunt and uncle hahas...got along very well nors...

Then both grandma and uncle gave me red packet=)

hahas...

After which they wanted to bring me go play jackpot to try my luck but...

i cant go in they change to 21..

so LL got to wait outside and if want to try got to try on others liaos..

hahas,never mind..

Then hors,my baobei(bernard) smile till so cute wheneve i laugh at him haha..

naughty little baby,never failed to made me love him more and dote him..

maybe is due to lack of ppl to dote on so i dote them like nobody business.

But of cos my hubby and my future baby will get all the love from me nahs..

hahas,hubby don't jealous okay..

you see ytd he want let you carry him instead of me neis=(

hahas...

Anyway,later going dad place to eat my bdae meal...

should be quite a feast le..haha..

taken quite alot of photos with evelyn..

shall upload them next time bahs...

busy making one surprise for hubby..

whahaha...

I'll alway love you my hubby=)

2009-06-01T05:06:00.004Z

Nothing much special happened.

celebrate my bdae qite alot of time.

Thursday with my mum and it went like how i expected cool and unwarmth.

Saturday celebrate in m'sia.

with hubby family and ah liang bdae boy..

Had a tiff with hubby due to some small thing..

just like normal bdae nothing much..today den is my actual day...

Came to my bdae not much ppl remenber it...

Only Evelyn,cherry,eddy,macus,ryan,chess they all..and of course my hubby..

Never mind...

hahas...

anyway my anger for the dampsely thing is appeased and dont want to find out if he said was truth?

we are all back to normal and being good frenx back again..

haha..

nothing much to post and i'm runing out of time i meeting eveyln later...

hahas...

shall post when i'm free...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

TO ME,EVELYN,JASMINE,ALEX,AHLIANG,CHERRY!

Our bdae side by side...

HAHAH

Do Singaporean dress Badly?

2009-05-29T14:56:00.002Z

Do Singaporean Dress Badly?

Singaporean Style Are Usally be Defined as simple and casual based on the majority on the road.But gradually it has changed over the years...

As you can see,if you went to orchard few years ago, you may get to see that only youngster like to dress up and dolled up themself till presentable or maybe their Dressing "loud".

Now a Days,youngster slowly changed their dressing to more casual and comfortable.

So that when they went out to shop they won't feel uncomfortable.

But as for females,some intended to wear till "loud" and outstanding..they even think that without dolling themself up or dress nicely they are consider "out". Or maybe even developed low self-esteem..

For Guys it''s simple and casual for them,Jeans,Shirt,Bermudas,Pants,slippers,shoes..

Their dressing are just that simple and guys always find it troublesome to doll up when going out.

As compared to foreigners,singaporeans male,are less prone to dress up themself for outside.They prefer simple,easy and casual.

As for the females,singaporeans don't have own trends.Seriously all our fashion trends is from other countries like taiwan,hong kong...They think that it's cool and be trendy and by at the front of the fashion line you're been outstanding and everyone is envious about you..

In my view,i dont think so,Casual and simple is my daily outfits.i don't need make-up everyday as i do believe that Natural is the most beautiful things in this world.Nothing is ever beautiful then being yourself the most.

If everyone doesn't have it's own taste and only blindly follow the trends and fashion.Nobody will talk about quality and it's it worth it?All they care is "ah!it's the lastest fshion wear thats show in the CLEO magazine this month issues!"

For Singaporean who have it's own style and not blindly follow the fashion i think they are "hot" in their own way.

It really do turned me off when my friends some wear till so "loud" just only going to nearby for a lunch.Nobody Cares to see you anyway.In a coffee shop what dress codes do you expect?

Those who wear till "loud" no matter where they go,it really do turned their friends off and also it may somehow made their friends "malu"(embrasses in Malay) without them knowing.

As For Comparison to foreigner we only win them in one thing which is BLINDLY FOLLOW THE TRENDS... No creative within singaporean...

Flips flop are acceptable for me..i ownself do wear flip flop...everywhere i go..except for some occasion and maybe some event..even clubbing i also wear flip flop as to that kind of place we want is enjoy and dance!what for you dress till so pretty yet your feet hurt and you can't really let your hair down to play and enjoy?

But flip flop you must know when to mix and match not every outfit you can wear with it.If not it'll become very weird and "ugly".

I wont wear my PJs out. as i think PJs are meant to be wear at home and to sleep.if you wear it out it made no difference between your PJs and outside clothing...i like to have nice and comfortable of PJs of my own and just meant for HOME-BASED..

It;s a bad thing to wear it out as you may not know your PJs got what kind of virus or bacteria inside or with it.Imagine you're going to wear it to sleep with so many unseen bacte3ria to sleep.thinking about now got so many virus and bacteia around you.Like H1N1..

This kind is so fatal and unpredicted.Thus,for my personal purpose i dont wear PJs out and also don't Encourage people to wear PJs out.

So naturally i don't Have a photo of me wearing PJs=)

2009-05-27T08:01:00.002Z

Something big happen ytd and it's so fucked up.

here's how the stories go.

Ytd me and hubby went down to batok to meet ryan(cow).

he said got a guy(kelvin) who selling his gf for 100k as the buyer is his kelvin best friends and the girl willing to do that it only last for 3 years.

when we got to know it we were laughing damn hard and didnt believe it.

so we decided to go and see the ppl in person to find out the truth.

so we went down to batok and ryan told us that kelvin is an carrot head always get chop by him and blah blah blah...

so then they say went to dampsey hill for drink and we follow as ryan say that if he drunk my hubby can fetch him back.

when we reached there they ordered a red wine and 3 sticks of cigar.

step 1 rich guy both of them..while me and hubby we shared our drinks..i drink snowball..hahas..

Then we chit chat and ryan suddenly say that he dizzy want to got to his car for a rest we stopped him but he insist on going.so we let him be..

Here come the hilarous and fucked up part..

hilarous is that kelvin told us that the 100k matter is true..

we played along with him and just chit chatting..

halfway thru the phone rang and he walk away to answer the call..

AND THE FUCKED UP PART IS BOTH OF THEM LEFT AND NEVER BACK.

WHAT THE FUCK.

WE SEARCHED FOR THE CAR AND ALL BUT IT'S GONE.

Imagine a few years buddy can do this to my hubby.

so beware of ur best friends no matter how reliable he is you'll never know..

i grow up till now this is the first time i met this kind of guys..

we called ryan dad and chess they came down and save us..

troubled chess again...

THE BILL is $226.

what the hell,if i pay i'm stupid a glass of snowball rolled to $226.

and the person who called kelvin to walk away is him instead of kelvin other friends.

fucker right?

Then when i reached home ryan called and faking he had no idea.

Then i didnt mention that did kelvin footed the bill anot.

he ownself said you pay already ahs?

isn't it obvious?

And also he use harsh tone to talk to me like i wronged him.

And he said is kelvin came to him in car and said his friends in orchard go fetch them here.

then when they go till there fetch already want come back le then kelvin said we left liaos in cab..

Ryan didnt bother to check with us by calling and his phone is switched off after we called him for the 3rd time without answering.

Ryan still say is kelvin switch off de.

i was like HEEEEEEEELLLLOOOOO!!!!

you're no drunk!how come your things can be like that let ppl take wont you ask why?

treating me like fool...?

i come out facing the society that time i think you're still being protected by ur family.

Stupid reason and explaination i have heard.

he still trying to say it's not him all this..

stop bullshitting with me.

Take it as a lesson learnt.

friends and sisters do beware of this kind of people..

Anyway our friendship are over and please dont bully my hubby dont ever take me as nth when i treat you well and behave like a lady.

dont made/force me to do those barbarian do.

scolded you and fucked you right in front of everyone.

Nothing meant much to me now..

All i need is NICKYTANKIENHENG.

He cant be bully.

2009-05-25T06:15:00.002Z

Ytd is the day we about to came back and before that we were keep sleeping and till 12 went to eat bak kut teh and then went back home and then went out to giant to buy stuffs.

brought alot..RM 82++...

Then went back his house and sleep again and then at night around 6+ wake up go anggerik to eat duck rice it was nice..

hahas..then went back home a while and set off with his family to old folk home..

cos his san gu is over there..so we go over as later got to go sg in their car..

then after which went ther and i talk to jingjing and found out that ryan say hubby being brother like didnt like that didnt do much things at all..

morning he busy but night time is my boy busy neis...

haiish never mind...

then we went to eat laksa it was called shangeri-la lasksa..

haha...when i went toilet his san gu say later he sit in front i sit behind .as we keep doing intimate things didnt respect..

when i knew i was like CCB!another backstabber...

then OLD FASHION THINKING.

i'm tired lahs..always got those negative comments..

SG is still much much better than m'sia..

dont what their brain made of so STUPID.

haiish..FOOK IT..

back sg and found out my money missing..

BADBAD WEEKEND FOR ME.

I HATE IT

2009-05-25T05:59:00.003Z

today is his big day,both of us dress up nicely and went to the hotel to meet up with them.

all was done and smoothly then when reach yingx2 house i was throwing bit tantrum as heard tht shirleen going to play till very CB.

Then after which,go thru the door breaking and hubby got to wear pampers and tutu.omg.

I feel shameshame..but then after that everything is alright and soon i was abit okay but still unhappy as i felt like i was an alien..finally all is over and went back to hotel..my face is still black of course i miss SG!

Then we sleep a while and gtg for the dinner briefing..

i went to the groom and bride room for makeup and then went to ryan room for puff.

then hubby keep left me out and then they all talk around and i was been left out totally..

i felt like and idiot and i feel damn lonely..

No one i cdan talk to freely,nobody accompany me..hubby busy wi9th shirleen they all...

been left out,i miss home,my friends where i can be free.and be myself..

i wanted to leave and hubby holded me say what happen where i go..i dont feel like answering him,as i really feel lonely inside me.nothing can be help.

i went to ground floor at someplace where nobody can saw me facing the sea view and i cried.

i wished to be back sg even though is just a sea away,but i feel lonely over there indeed.

everything is so unfamiliar..i scare of loneliness but yet i still got to bear with it and do all those face changing game.i'm tired...

can say i'm over sensitive but put yourself in my shoes.shirleen know you all for how long?she wont feel lonely at all..she got you all and niu 24/7. and jingjing...

while me? i got nothing with you all i felt like i'm extra.really made me feel like i'm extra...

nobody made me feel safe and secure..nobody can give me the sense of home..

although everything is over but i think back i'm still afraid..

go ahead and laugh me for being timid bahs..but im really scare.

i'm a girl who lack of security alot..damn lot...

nobody really understand me...everyone think i'm unreasonable then that it...

i dont want to explain and say..nobody can understand how i really feel.

nobody has the home like mine nobody has the same kind of livehood and exp like mine..

so no one in this world will understand how i feel...how much phobia i have..

no one knew..

But after tat i drink beer and boost my daing.and also made me tipsy rather then i'm totally sober so as to not thinking about anything..i made myself feel in place and this is what i can do...other i really dont know already...

anyway in this world nobody will pity you you got to stay strong urself and for me by going thru all things i'm much stronger..

And after that we went to eat kuey chap and then niu keep cryin and saying lots of craps.

useless lahs!and also find shirleen pityful been jamed with him...

iritated me quite some times..

and shirleen always flirt with hubby and i'm going CRAZY..

I going to scold all my vulgarities i'm bearing it for too long..

KNN!NABEICCB!!!!KA NI NA BEI CCB!

PUA CB!

All i can say to describe my today 23/5/09.

For all the thing i'm suffer.

but anyway still wish chess and yingx2 blissful marriage.

2009-05-25T05:46:00.002Z

Come back to blog about the wedding things...

friday,set off from home around 7+ to custom..

around 9+ then reach m'sia...queueing for quite long at the malaysia custom..

dont know what the person are doing make the queue stuck for soo long...

finally got over,and chess and his jie fu came to fetch us at city square there...

hubby got mixed up the caltex location and unintentionally scolded chess for nth..

after that we went off to his house but found out that he did not have his house key and it was at chess camberry there.lols..

so we got to go yingying house to take...but as due to tradition bride and the groom cannot see each other before that day.so,he stop at halfway hubby go down take and then who knows yingx2 came.but luckily didnt see..hahas...

Then they bring us home..

back home finally and hubby washed his car while i called meishi to confirm with her and then we set off at around 10.30 to her house...

we reached there but can't find no 21 so we were in circles for an hour i think..then we meet her at the school there..then her cousin fetch her come..

then we went to yingx2 hse to return to hubby dad the key and his face is very black as we went for very long..then after which we stayed a while and then went to eat and i didnt eat because i was bit angry..lols...

then went back to yingx2 house right?

shirleen came,i was at hubby car with meishi and then he came in and say go down nahs...then like say till some sort of as if my fault like that.so i didnt care...but was angry as it was she the one who made me dislike her.

then a while hubby bring me to eat..we went somewhere near meishi house to eat...

i ate the brown sauce fried rice and drink sunshine(mixed of peace and mango).

inside got the mango pearl damn nice but too bad is not cold..you chew it it burst in ur mouth..

shiok ahs..hubby was veryvery tired..and meishi ate a cheese cake and drink mocha i think..

then after all we sent her back and we went back home..it around 3plus and hubby still want to clean the tyre so everything done was around 4? then we bathe and watch movie and around 5+ then we sleep and 7+ we wake up..power leis..

2009-05-22T06:20:00.002Z

Recently i'm busy doing my blogshop.

designing and thinking all this drenched quite abit of my brain juice.

it still half done only.any suggestion what to sell?friends out there?

i intend to sell MAC cosmectic decide to import from oversea.should be quite affordable for you all i think.hahas..

later i'll be going in m'sia already=x

ytd done my nails,hahas it's pretty right now..as i will be wearing all white that day thus my colors of my nails is like princess colors..

OMG,i look like old princess..hahas

nothing much happen between me and hubby..we're still the same lovely and loving each other..hahas...thick skin ah we..=x

but ytd hubby scolded me then shedded my tears..is like i didnt do anything wrong and he didnt scold me at all nor even angry with me then suddenly raise his voice at me i was so shocked.hahs,just that blur sotong la me..he's just playing with me..anyway he apologise already..so he's been forgiven=D

Then at night,we both watching movie at home SEX IS ZERO 2.hahas,not nice the storyline very lame ahs..lols..luckily i never go cinema watch that time if not waste my $ for paying the ticket.

Then i help to file hubby foot the callus are alot man..

i scrub his callus away can scrub till die..hubby very funny keep ask me scrub when it already left little bit of callus..so i continued to do it and guess what he bleed=x hahas..he lahs..but also my fault lahs didnt stop in time..hahas..then file his nail and shape it...then hubby say wha without the callus touch the ground very shiok leg very clean..hahas...but still somehow will feel bad for hurting him.LOLs,hubby cannot get half day off today so mostly should be we going in ourself liaos..take bus in=D haha...

simply just love him dont mind suffer with him at all=D

2009-05-19T13:28:00.002Z

I'm quite lazy to post today..feeling lazy.

today appointment changed to thursday for my manicure.

Been staying at home the whole day,no mood to go out and i don't want.

hubby is on 24hrs duty again.

bored me to death nearly..

luckily got his pillow let me hughug and beanbean of course=)

Then afterwhich,since my shop things been drag so long i decide to do all today.

i have created everything needed.

now is waiting for them to pass me photos of the products and i'm done.

haha,ladies out there can go visit it ehs.

but not now lahs.not ready yet.

when it's ready you all can go and view it=)

hahas...finished doing it now..

got to stop it and play my facebook.

TATA~

Love my hubby..Nicky Tan Kien Heng

Miss Him Like Hell

2009-05-18T10:24:00.002Z

Ytd didnt post.

was awake all the way till noon...sleep at hubby house and steal his favourite pillow to my place... smell so good..hahas,love his smell just that much=)

then went to imm shop sit his kor car go..brought an crayon shinchan bis..hahas,i'm just like little kids like that then ended up...went home and sleep liaos..nth much happen ytd..

today been cooped at home for whole day,later going out to have dinner with hubby and then should be coming home already if i'm not wrong.

playing computer for quite long and help my brother with his homework.

ended up he cried as mummy force him to do and he complain is a waste of his time..

so small then complain liaos dont know what he will say when he grow bigger lahs..

LOLs,none of my business anyway.

Then tmr think going my grandma house..slack bahs cos hubby doing 24 hrs duty again...

hmmm,then wednesday evening going m'sia awhile only wondering if i ask them go find lydia will they want not as the car is not hubby de=(

ah ya see how it goes..but hubby already promise me that friday will go meet her..

it's confirm and sat and sunday i not sure liaos cos sat wedding then scare later get reprimanded for missing nor...

as for sunday shall see how cos maybe hubby want to company his family.

but hubby said next week we'll also be going in so no need to scare that no time to meet lydia...

hehes...hubby just that good knew that i miss her and willing to bring me go meet her!

love you nahs hubby.

2009-05-16T17:06:00.003Z

Arggg,feeling weird and bit uneasy today...

early been boomed up by cherry then went to plaza long john silver meet her.

She with andy and the frog(all i know is this).they are eating at long john.

then after that we went to mac and smoke and then andy they all say got 369 ppl and then walk away to other places.

of courses and me cherry didnt follow we went to shop instead.

we went to earth doll and cherry brought a tops and i brought fake eyelash.

as my old one already wore out already.

after all that got a girl name ah tong came and meet us up...

we slack and walk around and talking cock all days..

around 5pm we went to 163 eat and we saw jia liang guess what?

he pretended not to see me till i went up and knock his table.what the hell owe me $ dont want return then act as dont know me?

hmmm,after that at 5.15pm i wake hubby up do duty..

then after i done with my meal we walk to bus stop opp plaza i going take bus home while they go 115 tua=-="

then even b4 i reach the stop the bus came and i ran for it..

luckily i catch it and i was panting hard...

hahas,then reach home i told mummy i want to eat and then i fall asleep...

all the way till 10pm then wake up and play computer..

was playing face book games and doing quite lots of stuff..am talking to hubby right now...and keep passing nos to my bro as he said his friend mingzhou want girl no..DAMN DESPO MAN..

hahs,lols,then my food is eaten up by others and i later LL got to buy or cook myself...

talking to hubby and i was so fed up,jealous and angry.

hubby told me last time thing which is his past.but i cant help myself for being jealous..

i may even when with him will think that this is also the way he treat other girl?

LOLs,maybe i'm reading too much into it already.

should let go of myself and stop being obsessive and posessive le bahs..

haiish,hubby said i blogging confirm is about his things and bad words one..

yeah,i feel like blogging about all u done with other girl but i dont want to rake up the past as i do also have past..

OMG,i'm too posessive already..

got to let go of myself...

hubby,i'm sorry for always making you be my vent anger area.

can't control it sometimes..

laopo scare to lose you now,

dont ever leave me or hurt me okay?

i cannot afford to be hurt anymore.

sincerely i really do hope that i can keep you inside and away from others.

you made me posessive over you.

you made me fall crazily in love with you.

i'm sorry..for my tanturm..

laopo will try to control and push down ohs..

hehes,laopo love you much and i miss you much..

ROM!ROM!ROM!ROM!ROM!ROM!ROM!ROM!ROM!ROM!ROM!ROM!ROM!ROM!

2009-05-15T19:49:00.002Z

Sky seems to be so dark and lonely whenever you're gone.

feelings and all the loneliness will be surrounding me,

bits by bits i'm been beaten by them..

i tried hard to force myself up and holding on.

but deep inside me and i knew without you by me,

i'll be gone.

With you around me everyday to me is just that sweet..

lollipops,chocolate,candies is not any sweeter than you.

you'll always be mine candies drop.

a msg from you brighten up my days and i knew it's love.

cupid has sent you to me,to been taken care of to been loved by me.

í wont disappointed cupid.

i wont let go of this gift easily.i'll catch it hard and pull it tight and into my arms and hugs you shall go.

No one will be getting you away from me or i away from you as cupid has said so.believe me and trust me everything bad will has to go.

nothing can stop us nothing can pull us apart.

for me and yo our love will grow.

we will together watch the flower wilter and the flowers grow.

economic will be better and our bank will grow=)

we'll watch our kids up and be grandparents till we are old.

everything will stay this way.

sweet and lovely.

from now till we are old.

even in the netherworld i'll still be by you and both of us will survive thru it and grow stronger.ntohing can stop us or force us to be apart.

for me and you we shall cherish the love and make it bloom and grow.

2009-05-15T09:26:00.002Z

Today just wake up not long and it's raining now...

hmmm,looking forward to go m'sia to find meishi now..

missing her can't wait to see her hahas...and then now got to slack at home while waiting for hubby to knock off and then shall went to see movie...

have booked the ticket...gonna watch fireball muay thai dunk..hope that it's a nice show if it is nice will blog about it and encourage you all to go and view it=)

i'm so obessed with the restaurant city in facebook it's so fun and nice to play with neis...hehes...simply just love it ohs..haha...will keep playing about it and as for my plurk i want my karma to be 100 haha....

so i will post everyday for plurks and let in always increase but not declined...

can wait to go m'sia find lydia....

22nd go meet up with her awhile bring her go shop if got time..as next day is chess wed cannot stay up too late..

then 23rd on that wedding day after norming de ceremony will be going to lydia house find her and prepare at her house=)

can't wait to spent my time with her ahs...

LYDIA!I"M COMING WAIT FOR ME....

HEHES,LEFT 1 WEEK ONLY....

2009-05-14T16:50:00.002Z

http://aalteam2.blogspot.com/2008/12/im-bored.html

to all friends all there..came across this blog thru lydia..it's a blog about ah lians and all stupid stuffs and things they do.this article caught my eyes and it's real funny.just like lydia said the meaning and definations of ah lians is not all the same there is different in it.

maybe those interested ppl can go and take alot on it=)

it will help you pass your times fast.

2009-05-14T16:12:00.002Z

today wake up around 2+ then faster prepare and off to UOB.

went to open an account and apply for the debit card NOW.

Reach there about 3pm then i got the queue ticket 1020...

waited and waited for about half an hour?

Then my turn already.and i was like a sotong like that just listen to her talking and getting all the things done...i waited and waited and pass her my $.

after that i went to toilet when all is done.

hubby called me.and i bluff him i just walk pass plaza to go toilet.meant to give him surprise by applying it without him knowing but ended up still he know it.

and thus i say to plaza.

and headed off to grandma house.and nobody is home except for grandpa.

bernard is ill and grandma with mum go bring him together with leonard to fajar see doctor.so poor thing such an small age (less then 1yrs old) was coughing and having flu seriously.must be hard on him and my precious baobei has slim down thru his fight with illness.so heart pain for him..

and then i slack over there till late..waiting for hubby to reach home and went out to eat together.then hubby call at 6+pm when he knock off and he tell me that he had done something malu.it's confidential due to it's too MALU liaos.then after that i meet up with hubby at 8sharp.then we went to bangkit and walk walk.we eat at kim san leng and again we eat mixed rice...then we walk about pasamalam to pass times as we were both too full so didnt buy anything to eat and the place is so small and bored i have nothing to buy at all...

then we went back home and we were in the same bus as guowei.just dont like to bump into him as i hate him for all the things he had done to me.and of course i pretended not to see him like i dont even know him.and then we alighted and we went home.hubby company till about 11+pm then he went home already.

after that he called and say chess wedding that day need him to ferry his relative from sg into m'sia.and i find it hard for me as i will be alone but luckily i got lydia inside m'sia.so hubby will drop me off at her house before he went out to sg.and then i'll be companying lydia till quite late and i can prepare at her house for night dinner time.then when hubby came in will just fetch me and to the dinner.

thus it's a must to know where lydia address in malaysia and got to meet her at friday night to double confirm with her add and her so that i got company and i can company her.

hahas...that all the planning ehs..but dont know she will wake up on time anot lors..lols...then all i need to do is just count down to friday hehes..

worst come to worst i stay at hubby house nors...or i just maybe with jingjing they all nors..but it's hard lahs..real hard...hmmm...

with lydia then i can do my own stuffs and i feel more being myself ahs dont need to look at the way i behave or what...somemore can chit chat with her also nors...

it's the best choice after all...

oh ya,and i was quite angry with hubby.he keep stressing himself with all those things like future house all this and is like so rush dont want him to stress himself i know lahs he love me alot and want to start everything asap but not to the extend by giving himself all those trouble nahs...

but everything is alright now..hahas..not angry with him already as he also love me thus will be like that so he deserve to be forgiven...hehe..love him alot lahs..muacksmuacks..

2009-05-13T15:37:00.002Z

hahas,guess what..i'm at cow house now using com ehs.

with dog and hubby nors...

hmmm,today just went to hubby house then i was having mood swing in the morning and then when hubby ask what i want to eat and i just dont want...

then ended up i steal and eat hubby de nasi lemak.

then which i went to sleep wit hubby and i'm so pig nors sleep till about 5 like that...hubby had a hard time calling me up..hahas.i'm just that naughty.

then after i wake up liaos it late already cannot go uob liaos...

then we went to plaza to eat only i eat mee hun kuay and hubby eat the mixed rice and it was so ex nors..=x hubby tio tok..

hahas...hubby got a new hair cut today so sweet nors and neat tidy=0

2009-05-12T18:14:00.006Z

haha...edited my blog quite few things...

today didnt do anything much but just that my big aunt came=(

went to grandma house earlier on and pass them those things that i brought from penang and they want me to ask hubby to help them load games inside then pass them..

Hubby today suddenly help frenx do 24hrs duty...

when i first heard it i was like.

and then i just haiish and cannot help it but miss him alot..

he ahs,so bad hearted...when he told me didnt think that i'll miss him badly de mehs?can't help myself missing him almost whole day.

so bad of him nors...now making me cannot sleep liaos haiish...

tmr when he come back in the morning i gonna scold him liaos for making me miss him and thinking of him whole day and do what also like lost something like that must punish him tmr!.

hahas...

today both of us talk about married topic again.then i at first was like felt so unsure about it nors.but after times and thinking i think is i worry too much liaos le bahs...hmms,nevermind just trust him like never before and love him like nothing else in this world.

And i know that if got $ le he will confirm come and propose to me...hopefully hope that is not my own wishful part bahs.

hmmm,love for him will never die...

just simply love him that much and ah ya dont know...

stop pushing me to other guy!!!okay?

2009-05-11T18:59:00.002Z

老公，我知道你很疼我!也很爱我=)

你的一切一切我都知道。有时候老婆一定带给你很多麻烦吧。

因为我的任性，调皮，捣蛋，弄得你受不了我=X

老婆有的时候太过份时，你一定要说出口。

我知道你要让我但是不是这样的。

老婆和你在一起的日子里真的很开心，无犹无虑的。

你给我的疼爱没人能取代。

我真的不敢去想，如果或万一，有一天你不要我了，我会怎样过日子?

虽然我是个勇敢的女生，敢爱敢恨但是我对于爱情已经没有那个信任在了。

当我每一起受了伤，都好想把自己关起来。不想要在爱了。一个人的委屈，辛苦，能承受的伤是有限的。

当我很累很疲倦时，是你，重新给我那个勇气，那个想要走下去的鼓励。

我真的爱得太累了，我受的伤已经够我塌下了。

我真的真的很很很害怕了，我真的想要就这样安定下来。

我已经失去了，像以前一样的魄力了。人人得到辛福时而我只能在那一端默默的流下自己的泪珠。

人常说女生的泪很珍贵，但是我的已经是属于白开水那样没有价值。

因为没有一个爱我的男人把他当成最珍贵的。

现在，我有了你。

你让我有了一段新的生命!

我只要你，只要你待在我的身边我什么都有了力气和目标了。

虽然，我们俩过了5年才在一起。但我深深相信我们的爱比别人来的强。

我就是想要一直做你的小鸟。小猫咪!

我不能失去你!

爱你的心永不变。

陈建兴！我愿意做你一辈子的新娘。

我最辛福的是能做你的天使=)

无论地老天荒，海枯石烂，我愿意跟着你一辈子。

陈建兴！我愿意!I DO I DO！

我愿意等到你娶我的那一天。

2009-05-11T18:42:00.002Z

i'm so tired today nors(-_-")

sleep at early morning 7+ like that then ard 8+ going to 9am wake up and go meet hubby.

He take cab without telling me and he's at greenridge packing food for me.

then he walk to my house downstair to meet me=)was happy but angry with him.

As i planned to get up when he call me and went down to give him surprise by fetching him at bus stop.but who knows he's the one giving me surprises=)

no strength to angry with him ahs too worn out already...and afterwhich then i with him walk to his house together.then we eat and smoke and then a while later we both was asleep.

Just like and love the way he always hug me to sleep.it always full of all the security that i have ever needed.all the love i wanted all the attention i ever wanted i always can have it as long as he's beside me.

Then after which,we woke up about 5pm it was so late ehs.but we were both worn out already.and while i'm sleeping wenlong flooded my phone for dont know what purposes nors lols.

sians,then never mind after that we were preparing to leave and smoking then dad called and remind me to go over for belated mother day celebration.

Then we went back my home to take the card and headed to dad house...

Today eat all my favourite things hahas,then after that we chit chat a while and my bdae wont be doing any grand celebration.no use i think.then we went off to plaza and get my morning gown for chess wed..very sweet and classy hubby said.

LOLs,in his eyes ahs i'm just that precious and priceless to him even though ppl dont take me as one.he is just that sweet and lovely towards me in everyway.then we headed to bangkit to buy things and do some stuffs.then we came back my house ard 9.30+PM like that.family was all asleep.and just like usual...while waiting for the show we both slept.then we wake up at 1am.hubby was damn tired and worn out liaos and i know that.(heartpainpain)

Then which he went back and he send me msg that everytime he sleep i'll follow him and sleep.

said that i was cute =x(shyshy) then said that it prove that with him i can sleep more easily and i do agree on that.with him even though how untired i'm i will still somehow fall asleep inside his arms.sleeping soundly and i guess this is what they say the power of love bahs.

now he's asleep and when he is gone i cant sleep already my mind will be thinking alot of things and cannot rest.hopefully after jotting down all my thoughts i can have a good sleep bahs..

a things for me to happy is my 1 week quarantine is finally over..tmr i'm officially going over to grandma house to look for her and company her till late late.miss them...

but time with hubby is flying very fast till i wont feel any sadness or lonely=)

hahas,nothing to say liaos i think and plus also still looking for the website things for my shop..deadline is this month end.hopefully i can do a good job and also need to look for shop for lease at clementi area..haha.

hopefully things will went smoothly for me...

2009-05-10T18:34:00.001Z

MY CARD HOLDER! SO CUTE AND I LOVE IT.

THANKS HUBBY!I LOVE IT ALOT=)

THE CLOSE UP VIEW OF IT!

2009-05-10T18:27:00.002Z

me and beanbean

i kiss and smell my beanbean

hello!daddy!mummy and beanbean love you!

my sporty look ahs?go plaza wear till like that?

i'm always urs lovely and sweet wifey!

HAHAS,before i went out i take all this picture=)

2009-05-10T18:09:00.002Z

Today planned meet up with teresa and cherry.

ended up only got me and teresa..cherry too tired and put us aeroplane of cos.

Then me at first accompany teresa to 717 durian shop to order/buy cake for her mother day celebration purposes.then she said sophia want to eat tiramisu de thus she brought it.then after that we went to walk walk.but before that we went to withdraw money first.her is POSB.while mine is hubby de card UOB de.

Dont need to wait nors..haha,then we went to mini toons,aries,earthdoll and alot of shops to see see look look..miss hubby every single sec when i was shopping.

just feel bit weird without him by myside nahs.then we saw mingzhi with her family and also my bro with his friends.but they didnt bump into each other lahs.hahas,then i went to eat mac and then ard evening time we went to sit at mac and saw dandan and yongshan,followed by sylvia coming down to meet them..then awhile later sylvia go talk to brendon they all and we just sit at the other table dont care.then dandan left with her guy liaos.left me and teresa talking and when sylvia is back not long teresa went to collect her cakes and then she is off..all left is me and sylvia and we chit chat alot and share life experience de thing and logic all this.hubby got called me quite a few times but too ps to ps my friend there then i cling on to the phone.and he know tht even i didnt say out.so we hang up and msg instead.then after which,me and her went to 163 eat at ard 11+...i eat the noodles again.then ah tang(sylvia bf) suppose to meet her but ended up never and heard alot of their problem and found that actually i'm fortunate..hahs,then we walk back to plaza and which anson they all are they and i didnt talk to them of cos..and ending sylvia walk back with them and i walk back alone and then i was busying msg hubby and i nearly miss the traffic left 06sec then i start crossing LOLS.

SO MALU NORS.

No choice too obessed with hubby liaos..then cross finish walk awhile saw kaimeng and talk to him.to my surprise he didnt get into poly but higher nitec.so sad nors.he so clever in his math de.A1 neis..wasted..then when my phone rang and it's hubby called then i finish up the conversation with him and answer hubby de call.anxious about his call only nobody else..hehes

then hubby accompany talk on phone till i reach home then after rest i went to bathe then hang up and then afterthat i bathe liaos call him while i surfing nets and then ard 2+ he went to sleep liaos and i hang up.

left myself no sleeping but blogging all this hahas.finally found meishi blog and i'm so happy haha..hopefully she will contact me soon so that when chess wed we went in i can go and look for her ehs..hahas.laughs.

oh ya i today withdraw quite alot of hubby money out nors..so gulity=xbut spending his i'm saving mine then when hubby no money i will give him all mine=)

love him as he love me...haha...then today i brought a card holder hahas.very cute i think i love my beanbean too much thus will find it look like my bean bean..very ex neis 12.95 for just that.i so heart pain but i really love it.then i consult hubby opnion and hubby just ask me buy...say i like it can already..

so happy nors..thanks ahs hubby love you so much..

muacks muacks muacks...

you've always been so good to me no matter what..

really love you till i drop ohs...=)

picture i taken today will update in next post hahas

2009-05-07T13:51:00.002Z

ME me!at SOHO188 lols.

18 years old de me?

surprise?! my younger photo..

Age=15+

i'm 16 and working at levis at tht time

18 18 18 sweet 18=)

new year time de me=)

Was feeling bored nothing to do and post so i decided to post all my different age de pic=)

realise that i didnt change much but just tht my temper,character change.

friends are all gone now..

Thus that is also why from i begin to know things till now i always value my love rather than frenx.this is the reason.friends ya can be by you always.but they wont accompany you everyday.

they will only share the joy together and not the suffer.

Thus i'm more into relatioship rather than friends.

Hopefully the shop things can run smoothly.

so that i can earn money and not idling whole days..

lots of target i have but i think i need quite alot of time to achieve=)

人人都认为朋友很重要，对自己最好的也是朋友。

但是，我认为朋友好归好，他们的不好你知道吗?

真希眼前人!

正所谓"冰封三尺，非一日之寒"!

问题不是一日就成形，要带眼识人。

才不会让自己受委屈=).

alot alot of things went thru my minds..even all the past sister i have and what have they done to hurt me just because of guys.

She will always be rem and hatred by me.glad that she know who she is anyway.

"she"just cant accept the fact and make ppl to beat me when i was younger.

Thanks to her value lesson.i have learned althought i paid a huge price but i learn something which is pricless.true life experience i have tons of it.

Thanks girl! when i was sec 1 and maybe pri 6 the things you gave me!

although i hated you but i wont do anything to you.

cos in my eyes you're just got the mouth to say but you have no guts to do.

Cos you always rely on your relationship to acheive fame.

goodbye childish ppl and life.nothing meant to me now.except my friends that i still contact now and those who help me.

2009-05-07T10:17:00.003Z

Today nothing special ahs.

Wake up ard 1.45pm..Awake by hubby msg and call..

Then not long wugui ge called.he asked me to check the webhosting,domain name things..and ask me to go for courses and learn things.

I think if i'm goona learn i;m gonna learn handicraft,flower arrangement,basic mani and pedi and designs...

After which i slack at room due to my stepbros are using the computers so i got to wait till they watch finish their ultraman..

then after which i went plaza to print some photos and buy food home to eat..

I've done mother day card for stepmum and hubby de mummy...

LOLS,design till i run out of ideas liaos lers...

Then which after all that i came out to update my things and also to check all the info..while reading all those things i was so blur i dont know what is what and what are they saying and plus i have check all the courses already only 50bucks for the courses be it facial be it manicure or whatever was hesitating want to learn anot?

I got to go and register and then pay the money and got to go and learn .

Things should be done fast and neat but think i slack too much liaos not keep dilly dally de...

YAWNS,got to remake my lifestyle cant always be like that and do nth..

At least i learn something..

But all the courses are at jul or Aug..so long nors..so maybe going to learn guasha bahs..hahs,learn so manything also dont know can acheive not.

But confirm can de lahs is up to me only mahs...

yawns,think tmr or sunday then check nicely and give wugui ge the proper answer and update him about the courses things bahs..then see what he say?

Hahs,learn already i can do alot of things liaos...i got a skill and nobody can take away from me..

YEAH,miss hubby now..wonder what he is doing nors..he gonna book out now liaos..hahas,but wondering he will feel what when he see what i have done=)

ahs,my life is in a mess now...

Give myself till sep the latest i should have eveything set up!

AHS...sotongsotong..

i'm now so sotong

2009-05-06T07:17:00.002Z

HAHAs,chess at dingding dangdang=)

just like my hubby like to play little kids thing=x

no wonder they are brother=)

ps:i did play too haha but no evidence=x

LOLs,behind is yingx2,chess and in front is hubby and me..

ps:now you all know which person is chess that shit till the whole room got the smell liaos bahs..

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA...

2009-05-05T16:33:00.002Z

Let me update about KL trip bahs..

When we reach kl is around night time at about 8+pm.

Then we went to search for hotel liaos..

we all are hungry and tired yet alot hotel are fully book^_^"

So we went about the place nearby to search for hotel..and chess is bit picky too..

Want to save money is like that de but we girls are damn tired.

Finally,settle down with the hotel called MANDARIN PACIFIC HOTEL.

Then,we checked in mine room is 5006 while theirs is 5005.

all of us went into the room first thing we all do is to SHIT!

HAHAS!!!stomach pain mahs..

Then me and hubby done le we bathe and then change to a fresh set of clothes.

who knows yingx2 knock our door..
we're connected thru a door..

When i open and OSSH! a strong smelly smell gush in!

And you guess is what?

CHESS STUPID SHIT SMELL FILL THE WHOLE ROOM OF HIS!
AND NOW POLLUTED MINE!

we all got a hard time breathing except for chess lahs..

And they requested for us to open the door to let the smell go out..

and my room is smelly of course!=(

Then left with no choice we open all doors...

I cannot tolerate the smell any more till i vomited.

You can imagine it right?

OMG!horrible experience with him man!

After which we set off to chinatown.

it look alike our bugis street..it sell all imitation goods mostly.

And i shop quite a while..

I got 2tank tops,wallet and my jacket.

Hahas,all this cos me less then 40bucks in Sing$.

SHIOK SHIOK.

Then we were all hungry so we walk to the roadside store thought that it's till open who knows?

It's closed already=( we missed the good foods liaos..

Then we walk to some other store like zhu cao to eat..

We order kangkong(small),LALA(med),sweet&sour Pork(big) all is alright diff cooking method from sg...except for the pork ahs..damn nice=)grade AAAA! haha

Then we order drinks too all their drinks came except for mine!

i order lemon tea ended up come lemon juice!SOUR!!!!

hubby helped me to drink almost half of it...

Then we went back to the hotel..they sleep already left me and hubby talking in our room..

we chit chat till quite late..then the wind outside is so big...i can even heard the eerie sound it makes..

I was afraid..Hubby hugged me to sleep while patting me..assured me that everything is gonna be alright..And not long i was ZzZzZzZ..

We wake up at 9am+ then went down to eat breakfast as it was provided as it cost us $145RM for a night..

It was not bad lahs the food...

Got hotdog,omelette,fried rice and many more..

But i only eat the 3 above...Then i wasn't full the first plate i eat..so i ask hubby take for me..

And who knows he take so much for me like treating me like a PIG!!!

SO MALU MAN!

I didnt say anything,i appreciate his goodwill but he ownself look over my plate and laughed at me.suddenly i was so sad and angry.i felt like i was been bully without ppl to protect me.

Aint he suppose to protect me instead of him laughing at me when he's the one who took so much for me?!

I have the urge to cry so i went back to hotel room and he followed behind keep urging me back to eat..I dint say much just ask him to go back i want to be alone.

And he followed me back to room assured me awhile i keep resisting and he give in return down to eat and join chess they all...

chess reprimanded him saying him is too much all this...

Then when he came up he apologise and he only know his fault lie on not giving me face but no the part that he mocked at me.

I was angry but slowly it's been appeased.

Then We went klcc..to shop and chess they all keep raking up the things at the hotel cafe...

the we went to petrolsains (sci centre) to play.it's was fun bit different from singapore.

we enjoyed ourself thru the whole things and we went to dino trek it's all dinosaurs meant for kids and we regretted leaving petrolsains early just because the dino treks.

But what done has been done cannot be undone..

So we didnt say much but got ahead and eat.

We eat at the kopitiam there,i eat sweet and sour fish wok with egg yet hubby eat thail fried rice and yingx2 eat chicken rice.for chess i dont know cos when he eat i was lining up for my food.

then when they eat finish hubby food havent ready..all waiting for him of course!~

i didnt started eat till his food came den we eat together..After eat finish we walk seperate way,

we went to buy cig and smoke then departure to another shopping mall more cheap de..

Then i at there shop i bought 1 tank top,3 panties(hellokitty hipsters)..Think that all i think.

Then we went smoke as i was very tired already lazy to carry on...And soon when we going to giant find chess they all they walked out already..

Nevermind..then we all decided to head back sg but before that go kl bridge KFC eat first.

Then we set off and reach there about 9+pm i think.we set off at 7+pm..Then there is so crowded...but finally came our turn..we brought it..and it was diff from sg and it was even more suck then sg KFC.i eat abit only and i didnt finish already.

we went out to smoke and then chess continue to drive...not long we were at yingx2 hse.(she's a m'sian)

Then is about 12+ and chess washed his car and we waited then he bathe and we set off to sg.before entering customs we go pump petrol first and for a puff and brought anothewr packet then we left.

Reach sg about 1+am the i'm home and hubby went back his house and they own calculate all the expenses and stuffs...me and hubby only spent 550RM for eat and shop.Chess say i was so good to hubby by saving bit and bit.Then ask hubby to treat me more better.

Then is hubby told me de nahs if not how i know right?

Then hubby once again apologise for what happen in the cafe...

HAHS,that how i pass my vacations after all...

And one more important things ,we park at the hotel there right midnight time we gave the carpark care taker 5RM already then when we about to leave got a indian guy want collect Money again.and we dont want right then he knock the window daMn hard we finally got away from him and hubby point him middle finger due to his rudeness.HARd to commincate with tht care taker.he dont know what we saying even we speak english,malay ...

LOLS,FAINTS!

Then we turn out to the other road and stop to check for GPS direction and guess what he chase us out and i saw him first and ask chess to drive.then when we pass him he was calling his friends and also same time pointing middle finger to us.

UNREASONABLE!that means once change shift we got to pay another 5RM mehs?crazy...

this thing is happen before we went KLCC,means we checked out not long only...

Haha,WHEWS!!!!!

anyway enjoyed myself thru the whole journey...Thanks hubby for bringing me to look look see see and gain life experience outside sg and giving me all the good memories...Loves you much much lahs...muacks muacks!!

NANA<3nicky>

26/03/09

2009-05-05T14:30:00.004Z

HAHAS..PHOTO SESSION ENDED STARTED WITH STORY TIME.

2009-05-05T13:54:00.003Z

Me and bean bean=)

At volcanic caves!

Me and hubby...

kisses for me=)

Little kids hors?

at petrolsains,we looked like small kids

taken at the ride when exiting petrolsains

me and hubby at klcc fountain

hotel leis,mandarin pacific

just bathe de us...Blur

STILL GOT MORE PICTURES!!!!

2009-05-05T07:16:00.001Z

me and hubby at si lok si temple..

i rang the bell after make a wish..

at gurney drive after eat.

hair messy due to just wake up.

we we we=)

END OF PENANG PHOTOS!!

2009-05-05T06:35:00.004Z

hello!!i'm back from penang trip hahs...got alot of things to update ohs...The first day we set off from sg at 10+ then went in to ying hse.Then set off to highway.just enter not long after the tol.got an accident the car at opp lane get fire..OMG..so scary.=xThen we sit at car all the way for 8+hours till penang.I sleep in car at times and my leg often cramp because cannot stretch my leg.We reach penang at 8+am.then the hotel checked in time is 12noon.

LL,we got to go shop..then we went to gurney plaza.

LOLs,and it's very big is like vivocity and even bigger?

then we waited till 10am to eat at the chicken rice shop.

Hahas,i eat shredded chicken hubby eat bbq honey chicken noodles..

quite nice ahs..but the noodles got the weird thing which i don't like.

Then after tht we went up to shop..and buy tar sau pian for my stepmum...

then ard 12noon we went to hotel.

Hong kong hotel...

As we all are tired from the long trip to there we all decided to sleep till 4.30pm..

But we're too tired so we sleep till 6pm..

POWER!

Above are the picture in hotel and the hotel room key...

Then we went to gurney drive hawker center eat..

The food there are Super nice...

and the space and stalls there is like our mega pasamalam like tht big and long..

the chair and table over there got to snatch de..

And the chair there got marking de.

you sit their chair you got to buy drinks from them also..

LAME....

Then hors the traffic there is jamming till like hell..

I eat,asam laksa,char kuey teow,fried sotong,rojak and cockles.

The sea ham over there are so big and better den here in sg..

nice nice nors..hahas..

Then we went back to hotel to sleep and rest then plan to go eat burger at 12midnight.

But i slept soundly.hubby dont bear to wake me up so we miss it.

Hahas,the after all that the next morning we wake up and pack stuffs then hubby let me listen to one sound clips..

is my SNORING sounds.

SO MALU.

Then i delete away,hahas,then we pack finish we go eat again...

we eat at another hawker centee and eat the hokkien mee and char keow teow.

the hokkien mee is our sg prawn noodles..quite nice ahs.but lost to gurney drive de..AFter all tht we went to penang hill but no ticket for early time slot lers.we're in a rush so we miss it.the we went to si lok si temple..

Jammed!then the temple is so big nors.hahas...and we sit the inclined lift to see the big statue of guanyin.

HAHs,then afetr we left and go down there to shop and brought a shirt and beanbean.

Then go buy they de goods...

Then we set off to KL liaos..

KL will be in another post...

picture alot so i post in another post too...

2009-04-30T06:12:00.002Z

LOLs,Sudden Change On planning...

That niu and tht fatty going together with us liaos...

and they said is as friends de status go..

LOLS,craps!talking shit.

And i think hors,sooner or later she'll still be back with them de.

Just because ,she know tht niu lovc her like hell so thus she'll like tht ya ya papaya.

Then i was like thinking dots oh my god...

Anyway i won't give her any face or whatever if she get overboard.

I GOT MY OWN TEMPER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Everytime give in to ppl treat ppl too good liaos...

End up always ownself suffer....

LOLS.

Lao hu bu fa wei ba wo dang bing mao.

LOLS...

da ren bu ji xiao ren guo!

WHAHAHA...

2009-04-29T19:26:00.006Z

setting off to penang soon...Feel happy yet a bit sad..

Lols.

Hubby doing 24hrs duty today..

Leaving me alone at home doing nth and waiting for him to be back..

Just miss him alot..

i threw a bit tantrum at him just now...

Abit too much liaos.should look at myself before i throw tantrum.

But he let me in he said is his fault but i dont think so.

he treat me too good liaos lers..

i'm afraid the more good he treat me the more i'll take him for granted somehow..

I dont want this to happen..but yet he always give in to me before i can give in to him.

feel that i'm getting out of control of my own temper liaos..

AHS!!!

nevermind..try for the best nors..

Hmmms,tmr setting off liaos lers...

going vacation with my one and only boy..

HAHAs...

think today dont sleep give him a surprise by waiting for him at plaza bus stop=)

bleah...

SURPRISE HUBBY!!!

i love you nahs..

my blog has become ours liaos lers...

hehes..

glitter-graphics.com

What i see of death

2009-04-29T19:20:00.002Z

Hmms,while walking home from grandma hse.i couldn't help myself thinking something.

what is death?

why does everyone seems to always avoid the topic of it?

To me death seems to be an escape from human being torture.

By living you got to suffer from all the temptation all...

gradually,i begin to have certain picture flash thru my mind.

What if i had die?

Who will feel the pain of me leaving?who will come down to my funeral?

what will happen when i'm gone?

who'll miss me?my laughter?my naughty?my kinky?

I'm just can't help wondering..

maybe it's too unlucky for me to say all this things..but i just can't stop wondering..LOLs..

2009-04-28T18:50:00.002Z

today happen quite alot of thing nors...

Hmmm,where should i start it nehs?

As for the penang trip got sudden change..niu will not be going liaos..

cos of $ issue ehs,then chess meet us at blk 179(hubby hse downstair) at about 10+.

Hubby went to my grandma hse fetch me and i warm up 1 bottle of chicken essence for him to drink.
Then we talk about the thing about the trip till around 11+ we went to mac to eat.

Then happen to know tht someone married is not cos of love but is for the child sake.

For me,even if i happen to have a child before i married i also wont marry the guy because i dont want him to marry me because of the kids sake.

I want him to love me truely deeply tht till he want to take care of me for the rest of my life no matter what godness sake.

I'll still test the guy before we are married to prove tht he love me but not cos of the respondsibility.

It's good to have tht,but the love is more important cos once love is there in the future down the road there wont be anything like scandal or whatever shit.

find her pathetic sometimes,so many comment been past on her and yet she can just dont care and dont do anything to let stop let ppl look down on her ehs..

But after all she found her mr right all the best to her nors..

LOLs.

Then i happen to get to know tht SOMEONE told hubby mum whose's in malaysia about the fact tht i smoke.and it destroy the image tht i builded up.

It's kinda sad for me nahs,sigh,but what can i do about it?

When someone who out to harm me nehs?

Forget it,then hubby mum also got said tht i dont have the manners.didnt greet ppl..

LOLs,expect me come out of the room saw them den greet them mehs?

SIGH!

It's just misunderstanding lahs,plus also i'm very shy nahs,not so close with them mahs.

After listen to all i did a very harsh decision which is i send mag to hubby tht i want to leave him cos of all tht.

must be thinking tht our love so fragile right?

WRONG!is because i think of the future i scare and i dont want him to be stuck in between if i quarrel with his family or waht thus i said all.

When i send it,i was so sad and feel heart wrenched and pain.

I'm feeling tht fucking miserable.

Then hubby come over to me and ask chess to go back first.

he coax me ensure and assure me tht nth gonna went wrong everything.

i was shedding my tears like free flow..

But the feeling is just tht strong tht i want him badly..

i feel tht i been such a SOTONG to let him go if i ever did tht?

Then everything was fine now.

He talk to me alot of things and assure me.

Feel so safe in his arms just tht safe.

i just wanna be his and only his..nobody else..

LOLs.

Hubby,i'm so sorry tht i broke ur heart today.making you feel sad about it..

I'm sorry..i didn't meant to break your heart ders.

Laopo promise you there wont be anytime liaos..

Love you till i couldn't bear to let you go..

You're mine and i'm yours always..

Love you lotsa hubby!

Read the letter tht you wrote to me.

I'm so happy when reading it.

Feel happiness surrounded me.

I'm touched=)

Loving you more and more.

Sha Gua i love you...

TAN KIEN HENG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

MEIYING<3kienheng

2009-04-26T06:24:00.003Z

whenever hubby ask me to marry him,this is always the face i gave him=)

he's so angry nors...hahas.bleahs.260309

HAPPY MONTHSARY CHEN JIAN XING!!!!!

I LOVE YOU!!!

Nothing much happen recently...

The penang trip is confirm going already=)

Then ytd just came back from malaysia=)went hubby house again.But ytd didnt take photo at all cause not tht free to go visit places of interest or whatever..

Today,laogong doing 24/7 duty again,got to wait till tmr night den he'll be back...Hmmm,then ehs,is jingjing(qiao por)birthday tmr=xhaha...

Then hmmm,although hubby in the very first week we got together he dont love me that much de.although i know now tht he love me alot..but i'll still think about it.flashed back will still feel heart wrenched de=(

But hopefully hubby give de love can cover all the flaws that he has if there's any?

Hahas,just simply love hubby that much nors.and wed midnight we went to tan tock seng take mc.HAHAs,then hubby was mc for 2 days=)

then got to pay$ to ppl to take over his duty=(poor boy=(

Then wed and thurs we were at SOHO188 swimming...

Wed nights was raining heavily but we went after raining swim awhile den got up.by the time i sleep is 6AM.we sleep at there nahs.Hahas,then thursday we wake up also go swimming.but hubby 8+went to camp to endose his mc till 11+when i wake up.

He ahs,just so cute and behve like little kids like tht in front of me.

sometimes really cannot tolerate him ahs..BIANGS..

Then when i'm tired and feel bored he always come and make fun of me making me angry=x

But is also my fault lahs for being unreasonable...

Hope he understand ohs...And just dont like the way some ppl treat him=(

he keep been taken advantage of when he treat ppl too good.ahss.....

Forget it then.....

2009-04-21T07:27:00.002Z

Hubby always said wanted to marry me=)

Said wanted to ROM with me.

Wanted to tied me down.

LOLs.

I keep denying saying i dont want to marry him because without proper proposal.

hmmm,Hubby no worries..

verbally accepted you...

YES!I DO!
i willing to marry you!

Dont let me down...

LOVE YOU LAHS...

MUACKS MUACKS.

2009-04-21T06:23:00.006Z

Me and hubby at geylang there at mongkok eating dim sum=)

Hubby look like wanted to kiss me..

Just fall so deeply in love with his tendered lips and gentle kiss on lips.

Hubby hiding away from the camera hahas.

Shy shy boy boy=)love him nahs

hubby the sweetest kiss for you.
Nobody can pulled me away and prevented me from kissing and loving you.
Happiness shall revolve us every single day=)

hubby handsome face!

although after facial ahs den made pimple more obvious.
But he's still so handsome and cute!!!

You're the sweetest drug in my life hubby

Love to been protected by you and been love by you.

Nothing and nobody else can gave me what you can give..

my precious hubby and me at sutra mall=)
sweet and loving is what we'll always be=)

Hubby i love you lots!!!

There proof of it=( They prefer hubby nors=)

The fish at the Don't know what mall=xthink is sutra mal

Big right?And it like my hubby lot not.always swim to him instead of me=(

2009-04-21T04:09:00.003Z

heyhey!updating what i do over the weekend=)hehes,last weekend i went to hubby m'sia house=)It located at skudai hahas...
He first time bring gf in with him and i'm the first one...So nervous and scare nors when saw his papa and mama=x
The first day everything was alright and we went to night market hahas dont ask me what the name i dont know ehs...
Then satuday hubby bring me go see see things and went to do bit shopping but i didnt buy anything cos need to go penang trip liaos hahas...LOLs....
Then night time hors niu and dog come in cos niu mu leave niu again with another guy liaos omg...
Say me till very bitch ended up who is the one?
Hmmm,talk till her i'm raging with fire liaos..lols skip about him bahs....
Hubby also went to do facial also..Lols...The beautician ahs kipnap my boy for 2+hrs...
Yet i'm outside waiting for him silently...
hmmm,then sunday we didnt do much thing nors slack at home cos we wake up very early den go back to sleep Again in the afternoon like tht den sleep till evening time wake up eat hubby cook de food...
Then around 7 we set off back to spore!
Hahas..but we didnt went back home we went to west coast instead and i'm so happy nors...
Play alot of things over there...
Lols...
Then we bring hubby de camera back hahas...
i'm going on capturing spree again=)
Lols.

Miss hubby...today do 24hrs duty=(
But tmr off!!!
Hehes..miss and love him lots!
Muacks..

NANA<3nicky

2009-04-20T03:55:00.000Z

Today been awake by hubby on 11pm sharp.
Got to go for an interview at tradehub later ohs..hehe..wondering how is it?
Hmmm,as for dirad de i'm in liaos but i dont want to work...
LoLs,now just a quick post because quite rush hahas...and also weekend i go malaysia with hubby to his home thus no news from me at all=)
As for how the whole trip feels will blog in with all the photos=)
Hahs,now got to get use to it liaos begin to be lazy and dont want to work already....
Must change liaos haha...hmmmm,after interview going dad house=)
Den meet hubby bahs...That all for my today journey...good right?
LOLs...
Dont know why just simply love my hubby more and more each days as the days passes...although now still honeymoon period nahs...
But hopefully both of us can love each other till very deep and wont leave each other alone n facing any things or under any circumstances nors=)
LOLs...
I love you baobei hubby=)

NANA<3nicky

2009-04-15T04:49:00.000Z

My loves<3

2009-04-15T04:36:00.000Z

Today been awake by DIRAA calls.

Yeap,i'm in for the 2nd round interview...

The first person i shared the news with is baby=)

Then followed by YIMYIM...

I was so that afraid that i can't get into the job at first.

But now i been given a chance to go for the 2nd round the percentage are higher liaos.

Got to wear professional nors.

LOLs....

recently keep companying my baby only<3

Then maybe end of this month will be going for the penang trip liaos.

Hopefully i can go den come back start my work already=)

My hair is been back straight and Nice liaos=)

hahas..Kinda miss my PERM hair nors.

hubby hubby i miss you=x

Now hors,just enjoy him by myside=)

Nothing to say nor do liaos nors.

hopefully everything will be a breeze for me tmr.

Don't let me get nervous can liaos.....

Just want to work and have a stable income so that when time came i can go and take my diploma..

After diploma i can go learn facial and also den go for my degree...

Everything achieve before i turn 25yrs old?

Hopefully i can=)

by then,i got all the cert and experience i need for job.

i also got the skill then dont need to worried about no job liaos lers=)

HAHAs...

As for that someone?

Wish all the best to him,i have found my direction of life now.Just hope that he'll be fine alone or maybe with someone else.

Just hope that if he happen to know that i have my hubby now can also wish me all the best and give me his blessing and i'll be contented already=)

LOLs...

Baby,dont jealous or what okay?

Me and him de things are over when we first got together.

Me and him is just like friend now.

Since i have choose you over him in the first place then don't jealous lers.

Okay?laopo love you de=)

HEHEs.

NANA<3nicky

2009-04-13T17:39:00.000Z

These was what hubby sent me when i told him how i really feel about the things.

His friends just not that approve of me due to first time impression.

They keep thinking that we're not serious in each other.

And i'm really been affected about it.

Baby keep tell me not to go and care about it.

But i don't want to make him be apart from his friends due to me.

I willing to be strong and just bear with all those negative thoughts that ppl think of me.

How baby suffer and give me happiness i'm willing to do the same and give it back to him.

Although ppl may think that i'm always playing a fool around.

But nobody really understand what kind of things i'm going thru in my life.

So please!don't judge me by my cover.

I'm also very fragile girl even though i look very strong,i need a real man to look after me too.

Here's hubby sent de msg:

I don't care...I want you to be happy that all...Bleah...Laopo...

Don't ever say you burden for me again k..Since we together...Anything we share..Suffer i suffer more always..Because i want tell you that i'm the real and only man that you can always rest on happily..

Even how hard the road is..I always choose to walk down...This trip You say burden..den if next time old..?So there no burden between us understand..sa gua..

After i read it, i can't help myself that tears rolling down...

It's really the first time a guy told me all this things.

From my very begining relationship i always believe in forever love.

But yet,i alway get the hurt most by been betray.

I'm tired of it already.

Nobody really know how to treasure me and cherish me.Now came to baby.

He although Sometimes bully me but almost all of the time he been doting me and giving me all his love as he can.

I'm feeling alot of emotions now.It made me think back all those hurtful memories that all guy gave it to me while i gave them my whole heartedly love.

From the very first guowei,simon to guochang.

These few guys is the only few that know how to catch my heart among all my exs.

But all i get from them in return is either betray or short term relationship.

They always begin to realise my good when i leave.

But now came to baby,He unlike them....he really do care for me...

I love you baby!Thanks for being by my side.

Promise to give you whatever i can....

Just receive another msg from him making me cry again.

The sad and lonely days for you has past...happy day for you has began with me till the day we gone old,good or bad we still will walk..trust me and went through the ;ife with me that you never had before.we've lots of days to look forward and start our new life...Anything happen i'm sure i the one who block and protect for you till you can't sense thing that try to hurt you.Stay happy and love each other as much as we can...laopo,i love you.muackz..

("v")good night

I'm simply just get touched by him...

even just a few words but i know he meant it.

I believe in him,he's not lying or bluffing me anything.

I love you too precious.

NANA <3>

2009-04-12T16:00:00.000Z

yimyim de stirring

the shop at tampines 1

2009-04-12T15:58:00.000Z

Mine full of the sauce=)
the bake rice!!!

My emo

My drink

SO emo....

2009-04-12T15:50:00.000Z

Today,just went to watch the drama at expo with yimyim...
LOL,while watching it it bring me back some thoughts...
It say that in the drama that jesus can bring back one life?
But i;m thinking if tht the case den why baobei have to go?
Nobody giving her a chance to choose.
there's nothing in this world so MIRACLE as the drama said.
Maybe is because i'm not christian bahs..
LOLs~
After that we went to Tampines 1.
Its really big,but is has nothing to shop for..
The shop there are so boring and is has nothing to eat at all...
Then never mind,haven't even started to eat my period came..
Sian diao~
Then it's also very squeeze there..alot of ppl...
Then hors we went to SAY CHEESE to eat thing..
I ate the ocean spice and drink tropical punch..While she ate terriyaki bake rice i think.
The bill came and okay lahs not ex lahs but take up all my cash=x
haha..
Then after we went back to lot 1 to buy her wallet..
And in no while we're done.
We took975 back to home area.
i went to daddy house...talk to them a while and i'm back home...
This is my whole journey for today=)
Miss my hubby lots...
spent my time doing the scrapebook when i dont even know how to use it =-="
Finally all are done and i''m going upload photos of me any yim yim eat de things plus wed de frog =)

NANA