:: Tuesday, March 22, 2011 ::
Let me talk about my work place now.
1st day at new office was a shit things, there a spinster at my workplace and is always giving people attitude and throwing temper at people.
Oh well, don't need to guess, YES! I got it from her.
Everyone was damn pissed with her, and to think that the other of my team leader actually said this" if you want people to respect you, you must learn how to respect people first" Which is true! and i agreed to it!
today, is the 2nd day at the new office, of course, everyone of us cannot get use to it and still want to go back to the old slums that we used to be in.
That will be much more comfortable!
But oh well, there's pros and cons lahs, but what i like the most now is i can easily just sat at my place and do my work without people like the spinster keep calling ask me go up and down up and down for don't know whichever lame reason that she have.
My bosses part, am still in the mode of monitoring them, see how they behave and see what new stunt they are going to come up with.
Everyone is damn angry with the spinster and the worst of us all is Widya (tele tub), she sat behind her, and she keep talking to her (in shouting =_=")
She sing and expect tele tub to listen=_=" Never mind, worst is every single little things she will keep calling tele tub for help!!!!
That is like !!!!
I cannot imagine her days there sitting next to her, everyday have to do her stuff like PA to her like that.
She even dare to come and comment on us, she told us not to say we're busy! in fact! we are really super busy! She is the one who is slacking around nothing to do.! But well, what to do? Who ask her to be secretary to a equity Director and we are just a normal associate secretary, so we just have to listen to her and keep our mouth shut! we cannot say anything that the worst part!
Best part is when she is the wrong, i voice out and fight for myself she shut me up and complain to my bosses that i love to talk back to her! WTF
Haish, oh well... work sucks to the max now. Thanks to the spinster around us!
But wait wait wait!! Share one good news, me and rachel got a brand new sets of keyboard and mouse! And guess what is wireless!
Jean got it for both of us!! that is like so sweet of her man!!!
I didnt mean to ask for it, but my intention was only getting from WW and because he's an director and how much he earn per month! doesn't hurt him to fork out and buy us each set of it mahs.... But well, Jean was sweet enough to got me and rach one!! And is out from her own pocket money somemore=(
I feel bad! I feel that i like thick skinned to the max but in fact, am not....
Anyway, Jean will not be reading my blog nor any of my colleague will have chance to see all the post.
But well, i still have to say!!
A BIG THANK YOU TO JEAN TAN!!!!
THANKS FOR YOUR KEYBOARD & MOUSE!!! I LOVE IT TO THE MAX!! IS DAMN NICE TO USE IT!!
Oh well, got to go off now... look at the time now!! have to prepare to sleep..
If not baby boy gonna kill me.... whack my backside already =(
Night Peepo!!
Heartfelt words 1:13 PM
Hey everyone, Let again introduce my best sister!
EZSM!!! Haha, she's the best of all man!!!
I seriously love her to the max.
everything that we shared together! All the joys, all the funs,all the sadness and everything.
I cannot and i can never forget the days that we had together and all the things that she had done for me.
She is the only one who understand me to the max inside out.
She is the only who care about me, who knows how to look at my face and know what am feeling inside!
She is a superb Sweet heart that i ever have. Will never ever forget her.
There's alot of photos that i want to post up but well, i can't my blogs dont know why i can't post everything up. Oh well, guess i have to do it slowly and need to take times to look at how to go about it already.
I LOVE YOU SWEET!!
YOU'RE THE BEST!!!
Heartfelt words 12:32 PM
Baby, Sorry for my late post. This post was suppose to be posted on your birthday but well, my blogger got techinal fault.
Baby, firstly wish you a very happy belated birthday once again.
secondly, thanks for all the stuff you brought me and all the care and concern i got from you.
Baby, times spent with you was never better than before.
All the times that we being together is so short, i can't get enough of your silly,care,love,concern.
Although alot of times, i will be throwing tantrum and giving you headache but you still never fail to embrace me in your arms.
Baby Boy, i love you. You're my everything. You belong to me, every single bit of you belong to me and is mine.
Am selfish pardon me for not being able to share with anybody.
I love the way we play all day, I love the way we used to bicker and nag and fight.
I love the way when am being kiddish and you give in to me.
I love you!
Never ever had enough from you.
Baby, I love you.
You're just being so sweet to me always.
CHRISTINA LOVE NICKY TAN
Heartfelt words 12:15 PM
:: Wednesday, March 16, 2011 ::
Today, is my second day of leave.
But, i do not feel that am having a break anyway. They are still keep msging me asking me about work stuff.
I mean, as in if is not that important as in urgent or whatever can stop msging me and ask this ask that? Or even to the extend of calling me early in the morning?
I felt that i wasted my leave on these days, i did not enjoy myself much yet, is like am just doing nothing.!
Things is turning from bad to worse now, everyone is so cranky just because of the BIG MOVE.
But oh well, not only you need to move the stuff,everyone of us here need to.
Instead of pushing everyone to die and move your own stuff only, why not let's have some team work leis?
I mean as in a sense like, We all are human beings, we all wanted to have some rest, but when you are having your rest nobody bother you at all, or let say minimum nial.
Why when come to secretary ours like normal office hours?
I begining to hate this place, hate all the people around, there is nobody that can really make me feel like staying there anymore.
And yeah, the one that i always complain during work she did not bother me when am not around in office. And of course, the almost handicapped keep ask this and that.
Fuck lahs, I need a rest seriously, stop bothering me can anot? I mean is like haish.
Speechless....
I go back not only have to cleared all my admin work you know? i still have to clear all the packing and transfering of the boxes and stuff! I mean am not an Octopus i cannot do everything myself, i will die eventually.
Never mind lors, as i said, when my limit is reached i cannot stay there any longer, my resignation letter will come in.
That it.
I do not owe any of you a living, am just working. Strictly, working!
Last time, i use to think that i can treat them nice as in my second home cos i will be there almost the whole day.
but now i realise, they are still just colleague, not friends, not family nor anything to me.
Should just draw a clear line between myself and all of you, personal means personal no leaking of it to all of you.
Office mean work work work, nothing personal i shall talk to all of you, cos none of you will understand.
Never mind, there is no point i go and think about it or whatsoever, i will just be myself, and do my work get it done and over with.
Seriously, we are not like all of you so well being so good life out there.
We have our problems, we have our woes and worries.
So stop saying you understand us alright? Cos no one can understand me.
To you all, always say i like to talk back but when things is unfair if i cannot talk then what the point? Never mind, since you like to say until like that then forget it.
In future, i work ot means claim never say anything else. Nothing much left i will just go home and rest.
Best of all, am targeting not to go back office on sunday. So please let our computer being scheduled on saturday to mirgrate the data alright? then i shall just go back and have a good rest on Sunday.
I need something to cheer me up.
Heartfelt words 4:50 AM
:: Tuesday, March 15, 2011 ::
It being quite long since i last update my blog.
It's kinda of busy, but not really busy weeks for me.
Oh well, somethings does happen yesterday which i wanted to blog about.
It's not about my personal life, but is about work life.
My two bosses, AHN and KXY.
Both of them are female bosses, and of course, they are "nice" as in sometimes only.
They always have the mentality that am a octopus or let say they know am efficient but not to the extend that to drown me with all your instruction mahs.
I will die you know.
Yesterday, KXY send me a long email (office email) saying something like, (am sorry but my mermories is fading can't remember every single details).
She said" You have being a very good and efficient secretary to me, frankly speaking i won't know what to do without you. and thanks for doing the arch file and come in early today to help me bind the subs "
Think is a praise hmmm? wait and see , read on more.
Then she said" there's two things that i would like to comment about, which is your attitude and (i forget liaos).
You know am waiting for that arch file to be done, so that i can work on it, but how come you didn't tell me in the very first hand?
Then when i approach you to talk to you, you back faced me reluctant to look at me when am talking to you.
You let me feel that you did not respect me at all, nor treating me as a human being.
And if you want to complain to rachel or widya please do not talk so loud, try to tone down.
You are a SUPER good secretary i want people to know you is because of your work and not known you because of this.
I didn't mean anything by sending this email, please don't feel hurt, or upset by this email.
Am just guiding you to be more professional.
This is all i can remember from her email.
Okay, let's talk about my explantion. or let say my feeling.
firstly, you really broke my heart by saying all this to me.
secondly, you all always said you understand me for being splited between two teams is very chaotic and difficult, but none of you given me the understanding.
For example, there's an occasion when i need the trolley to move my stuff up to storage for moving of office and that erika trolley, guess what she said? She said" this is AT's Team file first, your one is not AT's Team so please dont put it on this trolley, you can bring it up yourself?" How you feel?
Never mind. I bear with it. My mind was only thinking of protecting and getting both of your stuff done.
Jean side also, chase me for bills? for admins? and ask me to chase you for this and that, but ever since you told me these few weeks you have a very chaotic schedule did i ever chase you for it? NO! I tried to cover for you instead let you have some free space then i will talk to you about all the admin that is overlooked.
Erika side, Bills got to be checked by bosses if not she don't care, knowing that both of you busy i dont let you check i try my luck and take the risk, in the end the bill went wrong my fault. I keep quiet i acknowledge is my overlook, But what else you all said? Nothing but blame me too.
AHN want her things first she said URGENT, you also said you want your things first URGENT!
If i said i got no time to do either of yours, all i get back is you must know how to priortise your work. SHIT LAHS.
In the end, AHN will only say if there is a need for you to stay and clear your work please stay.(what i have done you all didnt see it)
Never mind. I bear with it.
Am always thinking that KXY is the most understanding bosses i have but oh well, now it does not seems this way. You said i hurt your pride by backfacing you.
How about ours? We just sat down at our place during lunch didnt even talk you shut your door straight. morning time we just came in you shut your door again. The moment we open our mouth to talk about work or ask questions you also shut. We are also human being, the moment we open our mouth you shut your door against us! How we feel? we tried to be understanding that you need to focus on your work.
But we cannot seems to convince ourself with this reason anymore.
Is making us feel so low, is like we do not have a room to talk in, lunch time also cannot talk, then how are we going to de stress ourself? LUNCH is not like LUNCH anymore.
You hurt my pride and my heart by saying all those to me you know?
You didnt protect me against other people.
Others keep using me to do their work whereas they got their own secretary.
Nobody is protecting me at all.
I does not belong to either team, No belonging for me. Anything happen nobody bother all said is "is not my team" !!!
FML.
Am getting tired, seriously tired of all this, i dont want to carry on anymore. please let me off.
I love both of you seriously, i wanted to maintain a very good bonding between us so that we can have a very fun journey whatever big things we are working on. But well, you all seems to push me out from your world.
I feel damn sad. really sad. All of your saying your belong this team that team but who am i? where i belong? nobody say about it, just because am splitted. Am damn sad.
All those problem i have met, nobody knows. Am tired.
Let me have a break.
Heartfelt words 1:10 AM