Decided to take some of my time to post.
well, tomorrow is the date of the selection of flat, after we done with it within 3 months am gonna receive my 1st appointment date.
So excited! sigh, but hopefully, everything is as smoothly as what i planned and calculated so that no cash is needed.
btw, i spill the beans to baby already, told him about my planning for his car.
Argggg, hate it for not being able to shut up my mouth.
sigh, am so stress,everything $$$$, i need to earn more $$$$.
I got so many plans in my mind but i can't fufil them at all, i have to knock them out one by one, one by one.
which would take me years!
Overall, am still very happy that we got a house of our own, no matter how tedious how difficult the route may be for us, i will stand strong and walk it through.
Only when am stronger and stronger days after days, then i would be able to protect my own family, my kids.
I want them to know that with Mummy around, there's nothing to be afraid off :)
But i need to have more training and learn to be stronger, be it financial wise or mentailty or whatever, i have to be strong :)
No longer a little young girl now, even though am only 20 :) i have to grow up and be like a woman and not a little girl anymore.
Although i need people to dote me and sayang me but i have to be independent (still enjoying being dote lahs haha) for my family.
This weekend, going to batam with my family, hopefully, i can get those stuff that i wanted nahs, if not disappointed. let me enjoy this weekend to the fullest :)
Next week, going phuket with my team :) sleeping alone in the Banthai hotel, first time take airplane, alamak so nervous yet i'm abit looking forward to it.
well, if with baby around that will be marvellous, but haish, if he go am afraid he will feel out of place and eventually be neglected by me. So the best is not to bring him along heheheheh....
well, can't wait for tomorrow to arrive and of course, my Batam trip and Phuket Trip :)
Baby, you will always be loved by me :)
I'm gonna give you whatever best stuff i can give you, give me time. i will save as much as i can and let your dreams came true :) <3